Feeling crampy, sore, like my pelvis is ripping in half, tired, achey, wondering WHY I am feeling all of this crap so early on. I dont remember all of these pains and such until I was more like 30 weeks with my other kids. Then it dawns on me..I AM almost the BIGGEST I have ever been. I hit 221lbs at my highest and currently am roaming around 217-218.
PHEW....the weight I have to drop after this kid is haunting me....EIGHTY LBS EIGHTY LBS EIGHTY LBS and that is to get me somewhere near 160lbs which is still overweight for my height, but I was mostly happy at that weight and I think I will appreciate it so much more this time.
I know how blessed I am that God chose me to have Josiah and that I CAN and WILL lose the weight after I have him....its just hard to keep a positive attitude knowing the task I have before me!
4 comments:
I know you must be so tired. I will pray for rest and strength for you!
You are more than your weight..
Keep your head up girl! You CAN lose that weight. Don't go into it thinking that you can't, because then you really won't. Look on the bright side, all the weight gain is worth it when you get to hold your new baby boy.
I've never been pregnant, so I don't know what it is like, but I am sure it takes you on one hell of an emotional roller coaster. Just hang on tight, and I have faith that you'll make it! =)
pregnancy is so hard. i have five boys. i got up to 230 with the last one. amazingly, i was about 203 a couple weeks after delivery. so, you will probably lose at least 20-30 pounds right away. just remember that you are growing another human being and it is an amzing, wonderful thing you are doing! you will lose the weight later. just concentrate on trying to make healthy choices and stay as active as you can. it is so hard when your body is doing so much "work" in growing that baby, not to mention caring for the rest of your family. anyway, just wanted you to know you arent' alone. other people know exactly how you feel!
emily
http://helpemilylose.blogspot.com
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