Its...a .....

Friday night I had a scare. Had enough bleeding to freak me out and we headed to the ER. Baby is fine. I have a bladder infection, my 1st one so I had no idea. I am feeling decent. Still getting sick here and there, but enjoying feeling some movement!


oh also.... its a BOY :) Just as I suspected! Hubby is beyond thrilled!

So now the name game begins!

Nathaniel Griffin (we both love Nate and I have mentioned before how much hubs likes Griffin)

or

Jared James (we both love Jared too, and James is his brothers middle name, and it keeps us going with the J thing) (Jamison and Jackson)

what do you think?

ahhhh BOOO!

Wow I hadnt realized it had been SO long since I posted. I read your blogs daily, but never have the chance to comment. Work is way busy these days. Which is a good thing. I am counting down the days until maternity leave LOL!

I am 16 weeks now. Finally am over the puking! Ahh such a good thing. Still down a few lbs from pre-preg weight, which is awesome! I am hoping to not gain anythign until at least 20 weeks! I have my next appt next Tues and then can make the appt to find out the sex of the baby. I had a 1st tri scan at 14 weeks and she guessed boy...but said she wasnt certain. My belly is BIG already. Its amazing how #3 can pop out so fast! I will have to post a picture soon.

I have the nursery all picked out....not what I posted below...but super cute.

I braved Toys R us on black friday and got the kids mostly done. I have some stocking stuff to get and one more steal a gift for my family exchange. We went Sat and got our tree, decorated it and the house. I LOVE IT! Makes me happy!

We did some family pics on Sat night. I posted a cute one of my kiddos, still waiting on the ones of the four of us to get done.

Have a great week!

baby bedding and other goodies

So since we were done we had gotten rid of most of our baby stuff. We basically have a crib, rocking chair, monitor and an exersaucer for later on. I had JUST sold the bedding I used for my daughter about a week prior and the day before I found out I sold our pack n play to my daycare lady.

Fortunatly my bff has 2 kids, boy and a girl, almost the same age as my kids has saved EVERYTHING! She is coming through big time. Swing, pack n play, bathtub, breastpump, travel swing (like we will be able to afford to go somewhere LOL) A gal at church sold me her stroller, infant car seat and 2 bases for 20$! Thats an awesome deal and its gender netural!

P told me if I waited to find out the sex I could decorate the baby room however I want, there is no way I can wait that long to decide on some sort of room decor. I am in love with brown...and cream... I found this bumper and bed skirt at target. Thinking it might work, however are polka dots to girly? I would then add in more colors once the baby is here.

Names...

so we are not finding out this time what the sex of the baby is. NOT by my choice..but I am giving in this time.

P is dying to name a boy Griffin. I just CANT get into that name at all! I would love to name a little girl Stella since it was my moms first name, he hates it LOL!

At this point the boy names seem to be Nathaniel (probably the winner), Vincent (my brothers name) or Jeremiah (sticking with the J theme we have going on with the other two kids)

for girls...we were thinking Naomi, then P mentioned Ashton. Which after growing on me I am loving it. I LOVE Ashton Layne.....P likes Ashton Elizabeth.

What are your thoughts on Ashton for a girl? I like it spelled Ashtyn better, but with Layne I think its toooo many Y's.

Luckily we have 30 more weeks to figure this out!

Puke, Puke and more Puke

I am still sick, still fighting off the pukes everyday ALL DAY!

I went last week for my appt. Doc said I can take one more zofran a day, so that is helping but I am so tired of feeling like POO! My due date is May 19th.

Same symptons I have had with both kids, nausea, puking, constipation and some crazy heartburn. I am hoping it goes away faster than it did with my other two.

I have lost 2lbs. Doc was fine with that, he would like me to only gain 15-20 tops. I gained 45 with my daughter and 35 with my son. So I am going to keep walking and keep trying to eat as healthy as I can!

Salad

so thats my craving right now. Salad of any kind!

Wednesday I had Caesar for lunch and a green salad with black beans and steak for dinner from Chipotle. Thursday I had another caesar for lunch and then a green salad for dinner with cucumber, red onions, olives and oil and vinegar. Today I am thinking something with chicken!!

I am a HUGE coffee drinker....now even the smell makes me GAG. Which is good, useless calories!! I am back to drink large quantities of water and slowly cutting out my soda.

I am taking the generic for zofran which is helpful. Its a 12 hour pill, but only works for about 4 hours. But those 4 hours are wonderful! My insurance will only cover 12 pills at a time so I will be visiting Walgreens alot. Although that reminds me they just opened a CVS right by my house...might be time to check that out!

My daughter just turned 4. She has asked several times for a little sister. I have told her several times there will be no more babies..she has a brother and that is that. LOL So when we told her the other night..the first words out of her mouth were "SEE I have been telling you I wanted a little sister" So I hope for her sake its a girl.

I have 3 cake orders and an order for 30 cake balls to finish up tonight for tomorrow. Two are for my best friends kids and we will going to their party tomorrow. Princess and Spiderman! Should be fun to make!

Well there ya go....

I'm back, I know I said that a few weeks ago, but as you can tell had a little surprise pop up!

We went from being done...a few weeks away from the big vasectomy to PREGNANT!! I was on the pill so I think I am due May 17th. However my Doctor said I was feeling smaller more like 5 weeks so he put me down for May 24th. I will have an u.s in a few weeks to find out for sure.

I am scared, nervous, excited, worried, you know all the emotions that come with being pregnant. This time sadly I weigh more than I have getting pregnant with either kid. Fortunately/unfortunately I get SICK AS A DOG when prego and not just for a little bit, like for weeks...months!! I am averaging about 3 trips to the bathroom a day, doesn't matter what or when I eat.

So for the net chunk of months I will use this blog to keep myelf in check...and NOT gain 45lbs like I did with my other two.

I hope some of you come back and read...I got a new computer at work and am able to read blogs easier again, so I am coming to check up on you!!!

im still here...........

Thanks to those of you who checked in on me. I am still here, holding strong...just SO busy and overwhelmed! I will be back to posting next week!

bad day

Yesterday started out great. Got up and walked 2 miles. Had my oatmeal and then COFFEE. UGH Why did I GO THERE! I was clean for almost 2 weeks....then that one slip got my mind wondering on other things....and got stuck on TACO BELL. So I ate it..and enjoyed it.

Today I am back on track! Hoping my one cup of coffee didnt ruin me and give me headaches again. I am hoping for a good weigh in tomorrow...a loss is a loss at this point for me.

I still have not heard back from my moms atty on her will and what needs to be done with her car. I got 2 new cake orders yesterday, which is AWESOME! Hubby has an interview at a gym near our house tomorrow (FREE memebership, wouldnt that be a blessing)! My daughter started AWANAS last night at church. There is nothing like hearing a 3 year old memorizing bible verses!

Tomorrow morning is a garage sale to hopefully get rid of bins and bins of toys and clothes my kids have outgrown. Once they are settled in bed for naps, I am off to the outlet stores, dinner, a night in a hotel and then spending saturday at the beach (and more shopping) with a big group of ladies from church. Praying I can do good at the garage sale so I have money to spend at the outlets. Really all I need is a few bras. The ones I have are old, unflattering and stick me in weird places.

**again my is my spacing all weird....hard to read such a jumbled post!

YAY

A huge THANKS to Jo at 282.5 for my first ever blog award! She writes a REAL and inspiring blog. Check it out if you dont already!

and the hard part of choosing 15 blogs to pass it along too....

Wendy has lost an amazing 118lbs and is looking GREAT!

Dawn for her always inspriring words and great advice!

Cindie who is rocking some new clothes for her new bod!

Karla who is spunky and always has fun blog posts to read!

and check out Operation FAT Blaster for some awesome ladies losing some major lbs!

Phew ok....I have to get back to work and I do read WAY more blogs than these.....hopefully I have time to add some more!

ugh my are my sentences not spacing right!!

Hello...Hello...Hello

Ok not sure how I went this long without posting...but probably because I didn't do my weigh in either. I think I lost, but now I wont weigh again until Friday to see my two week total.

Things are CRAZY around here. Hubby and I are making some big decisions that will affect our lives for the next several years. First we decided to consolidate our credit card debts, this is saving us money each month and we have an END date as to when they will be paid off.

The 2nd thing is our house. We bought our house from my dad and my uncle a little over 3 years ago when the housing market was INSANE. We paid a lot for it and are now having trouble paying the mortgage. After much prayer and deliberation we decided to talk to them about our options. The outcome is they will take our house back and we will rent from them for 1K less a month. This will save us a lot of money as well as get us out of an ugly mortgage for a small house.

The bigger picture will be: Get our credit cards paid off in the next 2 years and buy something bigger for less money. We paid 350K for a 1300 sq ft house and the houses on both sides of us are for sale for around 110K, so the market has dropped HUGE in the sticks where I live.

Also there now more drama with my moms estate. Its amazing to me that someone (my mom) who had hardly anything would result in the amount of drama we have had over "things". Her will stated that my brother and I were to split what she had, a car and a small amount of money in the bank. She also had LOTS of jewelry which she had left in a safe to me, but didn't specify this in her will. After going back and forth with my brother, I took all the jewelry with me when I visited him and we split it up. My aunt is in charge of her will and estate, she also had paid quite a large tax bill for my mom, so now feels she is entitled to some of the money in the bank. So now my brother, me and my aunt are going in circles trying to get this all resolved. We are talking LITTLE money here! Ugh Its insane.... I am hoping to get this resolved this week so we can figure out what to do with her car.

I am tired....I hate being an adult sometimes!

Good news..I have Friday off, me and a few gals are heading to Capitola for the night and doing a little shopping and hanging out at the beach. RELAXING !! AHH I CANT WAIT!

School daze....

This weekend went well other than two hours before the party was supposed to start a pipe in our backyard burst. 10 mins before the party was too start hubby got it fixed. WHEW! Since the party was outside AND we planned for the kids to swim, having no water was not an option. I ate a little too much nacho cheese dip but only had one piece of cake. Then Sat night, all day Sunday and yesterday I was ill. My stomach felt queasy and nothing I ate or drank settled it. Today I finally was feeling better, but as the afternoon has gone on, I feel ill again as well as a pain in my lower back. Not sure what is going on...maybe some early PMS coming on.

Today my daughter started Pre-K. She loved it, asked why we had to stay LOL! I am so excited for her to start this journey into school, friends, an actual life outside of our house...daycare etc. Remind me of this when she starts liking boys and wanting my keys ;) They had the parents stay for the first hour and then we left for orientation in the sanctuary. We came back at noon to get her and had lunch with my sisters and mom (both have kids going to the same school)

I haven't worked out since Friday, bad! Tonight hubby is home and so I can either go run or do my elliptical, but I WILL do something as well as eat salad! Tomorrow is back to running in the mornings. I have to get going on running again for my race in Sept. 10K this time.

Fat Free Friday

Two things for today.

First my weigh. Down 1.6lbs. Not as much as I was down yesterday (almost a lb more yesterday) but I will take it!

Second my challenge. Special Ops Mission, week 2, for OFB went great. I had originally planned to do the Shred for this as well as the no coffee, but I ran more instead. So I made it....FIVE days so far with NO coffee. I didnt die, although I could drink a cup right now! I cant to see what next week brings!

My plan for this weekend is to stay on track, workout at least one of the days and not go CRAAAZY on Saturday. We are having a bunch of people over to celebrate my kids birthdays.

By Your Side

So we are going through some big ugly financial problems. Its been on going but its recently gotten to a new low. I mean paying the power bill right before its shut off, counting change to put gas in the car. Hubby sells life insurance and final expense insurance. Its not a set salary, its whenever he can get someone to buy, times have been tough. This has been part of my funk. Thinking I am in control, trying to figure out the way out, stressing, eating, freaking out. Yesterday a policy was supposed to pay and in the bank was a deposit for $43. HUH? Apparently this policy pays 43 a month for the next year and not 500$ chunk like we were expecting. OUCH.... I got on my knees, bawling..praying to God to show me His plan. I mean I know it could be worse, it could still get worse, but I was lost and confused and not understanding why we were here, barely making ends meet. Then 20 mins later, hubby called to tell me he has a job interview today, its a perfect fit, a bit of a commute but right up his alley. It was GOD tapping me on the shoulder telling me HELLO..I AM HERE. HAVE FAITH AND TRUST IN ME. I went to bed feeling full....reminded by God that I am not alone, I dont have to carry these burdens alone. I have Him...He is by my side! On the way to work I was praying....and this song came on. Such a perfect song for me right now .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J95rAr0gOFU

Hubbys appt went fine. His blood pressure was fine. The doctor did some blood work and wants him to come back in a few weeks to have it re-checked. Not sure what the few weird readings he had were caused from, but glad that he is ok!

P.S. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am feeling good about it!

insert title here

I can NEVER come up with a catchy title for my posts LOL! Oh well I know you girls dont come here for the fabulous writing I do here because frankly I stink at getting across what I am thinking into words. I love reading blogs because so many people have the talent to write. To be witty, funny, emotional and you can get caught up in reading and feel like you know them so well. Sorry that probably wont happen here, I am lucky to get words typed out that make sense!

Today hubby is going to the doctor. Sunday at church he got really lightheaded and started seeing spots. Our youth leader is also an EMT so he took his blood pressure and it was through the roof. He took it again Monday night and it was still high. Both his parents and his older brother are all on medication for blood pressure so I am thinking he will be soon too. He is only 31 and in good shape although he doesnt workout, which I think would help. He is also talking to the doctor about the BIG V.... We are done having kids, 2 is perfect, one of each, now that my oldest in heading into pre-k, I cant imagine starting over with an infant. So unless the good Lord has other plans between now and Sept...we are done. He is still not sold on the idea, (and I have no problem getting my tubes tied) so I told him to pray about it for the month of Aug and if he is having doubts I will go in and have my tubes tied. I bounce back from surgery fast, never took a single pain pill with my appendix and was out and about the moment the hospital let me out after having my kids. So we shall see what the next month brings...

And seriously if you have not read this book....go and get it. Its amazing. Short and to the point. Most of the chapters have hit home with me in many ways.

http://www.amazon.com/Power-Praying%C2%AE-Wife-Stormie-Omartian/dp/0736919244/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1249487798&sr=8-1#

Something new....

So this week on OFB our goal is to try something new for at least 3 days this week. Maybe no coffee (ME ME!!) or a new class at the gym. So I decided on top of my NO coffee I would try Jillians 30 day SHRED again. It was hard...it almost made me cry. I do need to get a workout mat because you are down on the ground quite a bit and I have hardwood floors so my folded up towel didnt do the trick.

Day two with no coffee is even harder....head is thumping...but as long as I am good by sat for my kids birthday party I am ok!

Bunco was a bust last night. Not eating wise, but game and prize wise. I had dijon chicken with white rice. No dessert and only a few red hots. We played Farkle (the hostess picks the game), not many people knew how to play and usually the prizes are distributed for 1st, 2nd and 3rd places. Instead she gave 120$ in gift cards all to the winner! Maybe I am bitter because I tied for second LOL!! But a Michaels gift card would have been nice. I'm just being whiny and need to pull up my big girl panties HA!

Mochafree Monday....

So almost through the workday with NO coffee and only water. WOW my head is splitting despite taking Excedrin twice.

This weekend was nice. I ate decent. I didn't do any official workouts but we did about 5 hours of yard work. We have quite a big backyard and my hamstrings can sure feel it today! I had 2 cakes this weekend, one for a baby shower and one for the youth kids at church. The baby shower was nice, the mama had to lay on the couch since she is having blood pressure problems and I just heard that she is being induced today.

I didn't get up and run this morning so tonight I HAVE to do either a video or the elliptical after Bunco. My goal for Bunco is NO candy...every table usually has a bowl of candy on it. Its hard to SAY NO and not mindlessly munch away on it.

Hoping for a better day two of no coffee!

Fat Free Friday...

I am sad to finally admit that I have gained back weight. I knew I had....but last Friday I finally hopped on the scale and about had a stroke. I was down to 195 and on Friday was at 208.6. Thats just GROSS. In a bit more than a month I managed to gain back 13lbs. How is that even possible. All of my clothes were tight and I was living in the dark by not weighing myself.

I got back on track last week with my eating which was where I was suffering big time. So today I am happy to report a loss of 2.2. I needed to see a loss this morning and cant wait to see how much I lose next week with adding another day of cardio and cutting out the coffee.

I ran this morning...its getting cooler and darker at 5:45 so I am glad I have a partner to run with. We just do a run around my housing development so we are not to far from home. So I am thinking ahead to the time change....it will be darker and I wont run in the pitch black. I am hoping by then I can afford a gym membership because I cant workout any later than 5:45 and I never seem to be able to get in a real workout at night...to tired etc.

Operation FAT Blaster

I joined the OFB site today. So far I like what I see!

The Special Ops Mission for this week was to post that "thing" that is standing in our way. For me I feel like I have definitely got the working out part down. At least enough to get a loss if only my food was on track! For me its two things...

I love Starbucks. Starting Monday I will cut out this habit. NO MORE COFFEE! Its going to be hard, but I will do it. They are everywhere....on the corner near my house and right as I exit the freeway for work. Its my morning enemy!

The 2nd big problem I have is THREE PM! It hits this hour during the day and I get the munchies. So I need to come prepared and avoid 7-11 snacks! It really doesn't matter what snacky type food it is, I just like to munch. I am tired, praying for work to end....and I mindless munch, most of the time on crap food.

Ya well I am sure I could fill up a whole blog post about the other things standing in my way but for now I will start with these two things. No more coffee and no more snacking on Crap. I mean I can sit here and mindless chomp away on carrots and its looooow calories! So next week that's my plan!

Upcoming Events

I have decided to sign up for 2 more runs. The SF one depending on childcare. Since hubby does worship at church Sundays and has to be there at 7am, I have to see if someone can take care of my kids that morning.

http://onyourmarkevents.com/Applications/BackToSchool.pdf

This one I hear is awesome!

http://www.bridgetobridge.com/

I have 7 weeks until Sept 19th. I am hoping to lose 15lbs by then and get much more training in for the 10K!

Legs after running six miles...and some random thoughts

So the day after the race I was sore...but it felt good. I had the day off, I got a pedicure and laid around ALL day. Hubby cooked us dinner (YAY!) and the only thing I did all day was take/pick up my kids from daycare. It was fab..... Tuesday my legs are fine. I walked 2 miles in the morning, slathered up my sunburned skin and went to work. Today I woke up at 5:30 and stretched for my run with my friend. We took off and OUCH...wow ok so my legs are SORE!! Surprisingly my knees are fine, its my groin and calves that hurt. We ran a mile and walked the 2nd mile. I feel good that I got out and did it...

Tonight I will elliptical.....workout some of the soreness.

I started reading a book called "The Power of a Praying Wife". This book was given to me by my running partner a few months ago and had been collecting dust since. After my down in the dumps post last week she emailed me reminding me she gave me that book and that I should get it out and read it. So I did..and WOW that book is JUST what I needed to read right now. Every paragraph is as if she was writing to me. I am feeling so full of God! I am working on letting go of my expectations of the people around me, mostly my hubby. Giving my fears of money and my stress of daily life to God...letting Him carry me through rather than relying on myself or hubby. I realized a few things as I am reading this book:

1. I cant afford not to take care of myself....spiritually, mentally and physically. I need to pray everyday, workout everyday, eat right and treat myself the way I treat others.

2. I need to respect my husband at all times and remember all the good qualities he possesses instead of dwelling on all the negative. He loves God, he loves me and he kids, he does occasionally help with the housework, dinner, kids etc, he uses his musical talents to lead worship both for the congregation and for the high school youth and he is a very affectionate, caring man.

3. I am to be the heart of the home....not the head. I have tried to take on ALL roles of the family myself. I am not the man, not meant to be the head of the household, and although sometimes I might feel as though hubby is not doing the best job at it, I have to let him do it...and maybe he will fail, but in the end it will teach us both and make him a stronger leader of our family.

I am signing up for a 10K in Sept. Giving me a month and a half to train and lose some more weight. I cant wait to see how easy it feels to run a 10K with 25lbs less fat on my body.

I DID IT!!

Well sadly I dont have any great pictures of me running since my hubby has the worst time getting to the finish line with the kids. 15,000 runners is ALOT!

It was the 2nd most amazing experience of my life (next to giving birth!) I got there about an hour ahead of time. Stretched and waited for my friend to get there. We lined up and were off. We were near the back so it took about 22 mins to go just the first mile. (Next year I will go more to the front). The weather was beautiful and they had bands playing through the course. There were a few pretty big hills but I managed to do WAY more running than walking. I finished a minute over the alloted time....but I finished (with some happy tears as I crossed the finish line) and feel so PROUD!

Sorry the pics are so small, but they are from their website and cant be made larger.

Help...

So I see some of you mention you have notifications when the blogs you follow update their blog. How do I do this??

I ran/walked 3 miles this morning. I kept getting a pain in my right thigh. I am feeling really good. Amazing what a few days of eating healthy can do for a person! Now if the scale would get moving back down I would be even happier.

Tuesday and cake

So yesterday was good. I stayed on plan and drank my protein shakes. I woke up feeling good today. I should have ran, but I decided to wait and do Weds, walk a few miles Thurs and run again friday. I am having a really bad AF this month and the fact that she showed up a week early is annoying.

Cake...I have been getting a few cake orders here and there. I am enjoying it so much! A cake decorator is what I want to be when I grow up LOL! Never in a million years did I ever expect to a an accountant. I wanted to be a nurse growing up, I guess probably because my mom was. Then in high school I was thinking I wanted to be an English Teacher. When I graduated I started college with no real set goal in mind and found a job as a admin. I really worked hard and enjoyed my job and was promoted very quickly to the accounting department. I have had 3 really good jobs, each that has taught me more and more about accounting and moved me up to the next level with no college degree. I dont love it, but I am good at it. Right now I am working for a company that makes armor for tanks. I do the collections, so I get to call and harp on people about money all day. Someday...I will be my own boss and make cakes!!

I'm Back...

Ok so today I am feeling back with it. Despite having a bad morning, I am happy and feeling better. I started AF a week early, maybe last week was a bunch of hormones that I was expecting.

I have my run on Sunday. Luckily I was able to take off Monday so I can recoup! My hubby and kids are going with me to cheer me on and then we are staying in Santa Cruz after the race to hang out at the beach with some friends!

I ran 2 miles this am. I will do 4 miles tomorrow and do the full 6 miles on Thurs, then rest until Sunday morning!

I weighed in this morning and was UP big time. I am not counting it or changing my ticker until next Monday after week of solid eating and water drinking. So far I have had my protein shakes today and have my chicken and rice for lunch.

Off to catch up with you ladies!

Funky

In a funk today. One of those days where you want to be alone somewhere...no kids, no husband, no work, no phone...maybe a big comfy bed or a pedicure chair. I got up and ran, only a mile, just wasnt feeling it. Came home and fell back asleep to my husband telling me it was 7:15..um ok Im late! Then I get in the car, KLOVE is on with Selah. The host is talking about how she lost someone and hadnt taken the time to grieve. I feel like I am ok most of the time about my losing my mom, I only feel sad when it hits me unexpected that she is gone. Like when I am driving home and think to call her....nope, or see a picture of her....that I wasnt expecting to see (posted by someone else on facebook). So I have never grieved anyone, maybe I have not fully accepted that she is gone, maybe that combined with the stresses of money and life and weight right now are all bundled together in this massive feeling of being lost and confused.

I know part of my problem is I am SO far away from God right now. I see and feel little things that are Him pulling me back, trying to get me to reconnect, but I am resisting and I dont know why. I believe, I go to church, I know he has/will forgive me when I do reach out to him again.

Just waiting for my cloud to lift.....

Fruit

So I am in charge of fruit for my small group bbq tonight. I have seen these made and thought they are so cute..but not 65$ cute LOL! So I decided to give it a try. I will say now I see why they charge so much, but I now know some techniques and could probably do it faster if there is a next time.

This might actually get me to eat fruit!

Tuesday Tuesday

I went and ran 3 miles this morning. About died....but I did it! Tonight I plan to add some new music to my ipod. I am tired of my mix right now.

I had a low cal day yesterday, but decided today that I am going to go back to what worked for me when I lost weight 6 years or so ago.

I was eating the following:
B: protein shake
S: protein shake
L: Chicken breast, brown rice and a veggie
S: protein shake or fruit
D: Same as lunch

I was working out 45 mins a day on the elliptical and the weight FELL off me! This is about 1200 cals a day and totally doable once the first week or so are under my belt. I plan to grocery shop tonight and prepare a bunch of chicken and rice so that each night I can pack it up for lunch at work. I have a my protein shakes already and plan to get a few pieces of fruit for the rest of the week. I DONT like fruit....but I know it helps satisy my sweet cravings that I get every now and again.

I hope if I can get back into the habit of this eating for a month or so and the weight comes back off that I will be motivated enough to stay working on it. When I lost before I got to 155lbs ish and was able to maintain there until I got pregnant eating regular food just not OVER eating it. By the time I had lost 45 lbs I was feeling so good I didnt want to eat the CRAP that I am now.

Gotta DIG DEEP!

Back on track

Man its been a crazy weekend and I ate my way through it. I just cant seem to get a handle on my eating!! Like excuse after excuse of why its ok just this once BLAH!

We had my Father in law and his girlfriend in town for the weekend. It was bbq after bbq and lots of drinking. I am scared to weigh myself, although I am hoping some of the running is helping to counteract all my gross eating.

I have been guzzling water today and had my oatmeal, my hands are swollen and my ring wont come off.

I will come back tomorrow with a more interesting upbeat post.

long time no write

Sorry for the lack of posting. With the 4thof July and sick kids....then I got sick too. I am back at work today after taking the last two days off. Hubby is out of town at camp and I have watched all the chick flick movies that are out at Red Box. Also made a few practice cakes and had my first official sale..of course I ran right out and bought a bunch of new supplies.

I have not worked out, but eating has been decent. Not as much night snacking since hubby is gone and I have no one to share popcorn with. He comes home tomorrow and early Friday morning I will be out running 4 miles...my run is coming up!

Off to read some of your blogs and find out whats been going on with you!

Thursday

Ahhhh finally my Friday. I love having 3 day weekend espeically when its a holiday. This year for budget reasons (which I dont fully understand) they are doing fireworks in my town on Friday night instead of Sat. We have some good friends that live near the ball park so we can sit in their front lawn and watch the show and NOT have to deal with the traffic! We are going to bbq and enjoy the show.

Saturday will be low key. Probably going to my sisters for a bbq and some swimming. Lots of laundry and packing since my hubby leaves for church camp Sunday after church. He will be gone until Thurs of next week. This is his first year going to camp as the official "Worship Leader". He is pumped and has some great music planned for the kids! I will take this week to catch up on some sewing, bake a few practice cakes and sleep!! The bad part is I wont be able to run in the morning all week since he wont be home while the kids are sleeping. So I will have to rely on the elliptical to keep me going.

Speaking of GOING...I ran 4 miles today!!!! It took me an hour, which is in line with the hour and a half I have to run my six miles for my race later this month. I had to walk here and there to catch my breath. My ipod ran out of batteries so I did alot of praying for God to keep my legs going!

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Thurs calories:
Coffee:80
Oatmeal: 120

My sweet boy playing with his new birthday firetruck

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Weds

I didnt post yesterday but wanted to log my food. As you can see I get stuck on a lunch item and eat it everyday until I cant anymore LOL

Weds - 1230 cals
Oatmeal: 120
Coffee: 80
Salad: 0
Chicken :120
Parm cheese: 55
Dressing: 90
Diet A&W: 0
Fiber One Bar: 130
Chips: 180
Cheese: 60
Sour Cream: 45
Avacado: 90
Chicken: 120
Milk: 140