Finally Friday

So no working out last night and had some popcorn.....but that ended my misery LOL!

I got up at 5:15...my running partner cancelled on me as I was driving to the end of my street. I was excited....I could go back to bed WOOHOO. Oh wait that was the old me! The new me drove my car around my development and found a mile long run. Came home parked and headed out. I RAN 1 1/4 mile all by myself...it was nice. My thoughts and a nice run. I needed it. I felt good. I will do it again tomorrow even though its sat and I DONT work out on the weekend. IT FELT GOOD. AHHHH

I was up 1.2lbs today. Whatever I will work it off.

If I wake up and run, have a good breakfast it totally sets the tone for my day. I feel energized and feel way more confident in making good eating choices. I decided to run in the Wharf to Wharf in July. My bf is going to run with me. Its 6 miles so a bit longer than I would have liked to start with, but I can do it.....and WILL do it! I am excited! Now I have to save up for some good running shoes!!

Im here...

Im here....barely LOL! I am so tired of this yo yo...somedays I am so pumped to be losing and getting fit and other days all I want to do is shovel in the food. I am dealing with the ugly monthly beast and since having my IUD out, she is UGLY! With my IUD I never had cramps, a period, hardly any pms, so this is all new to me again. Adjusting to cravings, mood swings and bloating. Its hard!!!

I have only worked out once this week, Tuesday. So tonight I HAVE to get on the elliptical at home. I am done with my 2 day whine and bitch session and ready to get back to running and eating my best ALL day.

Last night I had togos (bacon, mayo, cheese...all the bad crap) followed by chips and a REAL pepsi and then a chocolate cupcake at small group. HELLLLLOOO NONE of that is on my eating healthy plan and the sad part is I didnt even think twice about it. So needless to say tomorrows weigh in will probably not be the best with only a few days of eating right and hardly any calories burned.

but today is a new day...I am feeling mostly back to normal (aside from some cramps and a stomach ache - um overeat last night did ya!) so back to the GRIND.....

Already Tuesday

As you can tell I dont post on the weekends. Our computer is in our office which has no AC and is sort of seperate from the rest of the house and when my kids are in bed, I am either cleaning something or plopped on the couch watching tv.

So I am in search of a 5K in my area to run. I ran my mile this am and I think Friday I will be able to do 1 1/2. I figure by July/August I should be good to do a 5K. I dont know anyone who will run it with me so I might be solo, but whatever I want to do it and its a good goal to set for myself.

I ate enough for a small army this weekend and luckily was only up 1lb today, so I think things should be ok for Friday. I didnt drink enough water this weekend so I am peeing like MAD today.

Thanks for all the nice comments on my hair. I am loving it still and cant wait to loose another 15lbs and post some more pictures!

New hair...New weight...New pics

Down 2lb...slowly but surely I guess!!!

A few pics of me at 195 and my new hair cut!

I need to start doing something about those BIG ole arms!

Notice how my kids seem to sneak in the pics LOL!

Thirsty Thursday!

Man I am thristy today.....drinking tons of water and still feel thirsty.

So this morning I ran ONE WHOLE MILE STRAIGHT...and it feeel sooo gooood! Then we walked another mile after. Tomorrow I will run another one straight and then next week move it up gradually. Oddly my butt looks and feels bigger LOL Why is that??

Work is soo slow and I am finding it hard to not munch at work. I have been bringing carrots to snack on, but I SWARE they make me more hungry!! I am thinking maybe I need to have a bit more protein in my afternoon snack.

Hump day

Last night I made some yummmmy pizza. I got some store brand crust, red sauce, red onion, spinach and chicken and used a serving of feta. I wish I had made more so I could have had some for lunch today!! I was disappointed with American Idol last night....I wanted Danny to win, so having screachy and weird mouth boy in the final two was a bummer!

I got up this am and did my run/walk with Tiff. We run around the school near her house. Each street is 1/4 mile. When we started I was only able to run 1 of them at a time. Today I ran a total of 5/8 laps. Tomorrow I will shoot for running 1 mile straight and doing a few more running laps to get to 6/8.

I am back to feeling into this. My eating has been good and hoping come Friday I will have dropped a few more pounds.

I WANT pizza....

Have any good ideas for things you like on your pizza....for a lower fat lower cal...

I have chicken to use...

Tuesday Tuesday

I got my butt outa bed this morning and went to run/walk with my friend. I ran close to a mile..tomorrow I will DO IT. Then we walked another mile. And last night I did the elliptical while I watched Desperate Housewives. The season finally was kinda weak! I was hoping for more...but I know I will still watch again next season. I am a tv junkie for sure! I set my tivo last night for the Bachelorette...anyone else watch all these pointless crap shows?? LOL

I made some beef/brocolli stir fry with brown rice for dinner. I really never thought I would be eating brown rice EVER....but the little Uncle Bens bags (heat for 90 secs) are actually decent.

I had a talk with P yesterday about babies....he has finally decided he is happy with the 4 of us and not wanting to add anymore to the mix. So I think we are on the same page....its funny he has been wanting more since the beginning and I always said two was enough..and as soon as I start thinknig maybe one more, he is content to be done.

We are going to the beach this weekend to enjoy a little sun and sand....maybe a few rides for the kids on the Boardwalk.

Another Monday

Well I am in a slump...trying to dig my way out and not ruin the past few weeks of progress over night.

I ate pretty crappy this weekend, didnt work out or drink enough water. I just wish I could get the excited feeling that I read some of you have when you are losing. The WILL to keep moving and losing. I feel stuck...like I cant get the motivation or determination to get moving! I didnt work out this am, was too tired....it was 70 degrees on my way to work...got up to 106 yesterday. I went to my sisters to swim, which meant a bathing suit, fortunatly it was just a few of us gals and no one cares, but I felt like a FAT WHITE WHALE. It was depressing. So I HAVE to work out at home. I am going to move my elliptical back into the livingroom. Our office has no a.c and I just know I WONT go in there to workout if its that hot. I have Desperate Housewives to watch, so NO excuse!

And to top it off..I can shake the I WANT another baby feeling. There are at least 10 reasons why we should not have any more kids. I have always felt two would be good, once of each....and now this urge for another?? I am heavy..dont want to get prego and gain again, we have NO money...no room in our house.....but I know if we were to decide to have another (after MUCH Praying) God would get us through....show us our path as He always does.

so far today I had some coffee, some oatmeal and a bunch of water...hoping to get JOLT myself into feeling better and make better decisions.

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down 2lbs....

nothing else to report just yet..

randomness

• my legs hurt
• there is drama in my family..makes me want to eat...HATE THAT...
• work is having cake for someone's birthday, I planned to eat a piece and just found out its white cake with lemon filling. GAG I am a chocolate girl
• I ran 3/8 laps this am....tomorrow I will shoot for 4 laps (1mile)
• I got a starbucks this morning after my protein shake...non fat no whip at least.....
• P had Jack in the Box late the other night..I just had to go to bed, I couldnt even smell it :(
• Last night he came home with an oatmeal pie for me...I ate one bite and left the rest.
• I had popcorn last night even though I shouldnt have but I had it with water!
• I love wearing flip flops especially after a good pedicure (had one on moms day)
• Trying a new Ziti recipe tonight...made the sauce last night and it was good!
• I have great friends and family who support me
• I am going to miss all my favorite shows that are gone for the summer

Egg Substitute

OK so give me the low down on this....The hungry girl cookbook calls for Fat Free Liquid Egg Substitute A LOT. What brands are good? Does it take a while to get used to the taste?

Today is my off day from working out, but I plan to walk at lunch and then maaaybeee do the elliptical tonight. I had a Biggest loser recipe. It was basically Frito's with turkey hamburger on them, some ff cheese, tomato and some ff sour cream. I could only have TEN.....ten measly chips LOL I would rather throw all the ingredients into a salad with a few chips crumbled on top.

WW Contest

I love weight watchers....I think its a great program, but without support of the meetings I stink at it!

I hope to win this contest for a free 3 month membership! Thanks "For the Mom" for the opportunity to win!

Wish me luck!

Tuesday...Tuesday

I never can come up with a good title for my posts! LOL

Today I got up and headed to the track with my workout partner. We did 2 miles..running some, walking some (more walking than running). She is thin...can run probably both miles while still talking to me...I, on the other hand, run a lap and cant speak a word since I am breathing so hard LOL She is patient and encouraging and she ROCKS! I am so happy to have her on my "Team"!!

My challenge for myself this week is to be able to run one full mile without stopping and to not have a snack after I have dinner. Usually every night I have some popcorn. I air pop it with no butter, but I use salt...and have a diet soda. So I think I am retaining water from eating that. I wake up some mornings and feel so swollen.

I brought my Hungry Girl cookbook today, so while covering lunch at the front desk I plan to find a few things new to try for next week. I have a couple new ones we are eating this week from the Biggest Loser book, I will post the recipes if they are good.

Any good recipes you want to share? I love trying new things!!

2 bottles of water down, some oatmeal and I am now sipping my coffee trying to REALLY wake up!

Another week...

So this weekend was a bust. I ate like I was a size 2, but managed to not gain anything. I was down another lb for last week, so thats encouraging. If I could only get my eating and working out ON target in the same week I might have an excellent weigh in.

My Mothers Day was fun. I had lunch with my mom and sisters, then a bit of shopping, to get a pedicure and then to Chilis for a margarita and WAY to many chips!! I got a new pair of "dressier" flip flops, some I could wear to work to go with my new pedicure! I LOVE a good pedicure!

Back to the grind of boring eating today. Except...for my snack I have hummus with some cucumbers! Yum!

I went to the gym this am and did 30 mins on the treadmill. I walked some but ran a lot..got almost 2 miles in. I can only run at 4.3 right now..but slowly I will get back up to 5ish.

Hope you all have an AWESOME week!

Nothing

I guess I have nothing exciting to post about. I didnt get up and workout this am..and then ended up sleeping to late and had to rush to get out of the house. I WILL workout tonight, because I HAVE too! Luckily I have the elliptical at home to use. I am still determined to lose this dang weight but each day gets harder and harder to stick to the plan, I know I WONT fail this time....and that I have a long way to go, so I just have to BE STRONG!

Tonight I have a ton of stuff to do. Make mothers day cards for my moms and sisters. I plan to make some marinara sauce to freeze for dinner one night next week, try and figure out something little to make for my sisters for mothers day, elliptical, pack my lunch for tomorrow and I am sure there are 10 other things to do!

Tomorrow night I am taking my daughter to see a local production of Beauty and the Beast with my sister, SIL, their kids and my step-mom. She is soo excited..she is very dramatic and I think will probably be into that when she is a bit bigger. Saturday night is Outback for dinner. I am going to have one drink, but skip the appetizers....have some steak and a salad with no cheese and dressing on the side. I have to be good this weekend so I can see a LOSS next week!

My SIL called the other day to tell me she got me 2 hours of house cleaning service for Mothers Day..how awesome is that. So I have started a list of all the things I HATE to do.. (blinds, baseboards etc) and will have the gal come sometime next week.

oh well like I said nothing really exciting going on....

Running

So I want to run. To set a goal, a 5K would be a good start, to run. I love to run. I used to run alot. This is a great time of year to run, its cool out in the morning and it just feels great. I am in search of a 5K to run in a few months, so I can get a little more conditioned to run that length. I read a lot of great blogs where ladies have come so far. Starting out high in weight and in the end running 5-10K's. Its soo amazing and such an inspiration to me and soo many others!

so I need some tips....have any advice to share?

I plan to start tomorrow with my running. My workout partner likes to run so I am going to get a hold of her today, maybe tomorrow we can run together outside.....just a mile and see how my body reacts!

Soooore!

It was hard to get up today for the gym! I was soo tired but I got up ...a bit late, but I made it. Today was a weight workout day. OUCH I am sore...worked out every muscle and feel great. I love the feeling of STRENGTH..knowing each time I lift a weight I am losing FAT and gaining muscle!

Last night was bunco. Veggie pizza, chinese chicken salad, ice cream sundaes and cheesecake were served, not to mention each table had junior mints and hot tamales on them (oh and smirnoff ice!). So I knew this was the menu all day (I called ahead LOL) and planned out in my head what I would do. I will say when I got there it all went out the window. I cracked...it smelled so good in there! A few of the gals in Bunco are also in my Biggest Loser competion and one girl made a comment to me "Go ahead and eat a bunch of pizza so I can win the money" Thats all it took. I GOT STRONG...the tiny bit of willpower I had took control. I had two servings of the salad, a few hot tamales and a few junior mints. I WON....me...little old me who normally would have eaten 2 slices of pizza (at least) PLUS 2 servings of salad, bread and a big piece of cheesecake and probably a couple smirnoffs! Oh and I watched 4 other girls from my competion eating dessert.....that will only help me win!

Now I totally get the chicken salad had some bad stuff in it and was probably still WAY over my calories that I needed for dinner, but I think I made good choices with what I had to work with. Baby steps!

At Bunco we actually ended up playing Whoopie. A fun dice game where the winner of each table gets to look at everyones gift and take the one they want and move to the next table. After about an hour of playing I won this cookbook! What a fitting prize for me! I want you to know I PASSED up the Olive Garden gift card as well as one to the new yogurt shop in town hoping to keep this book in my possession.

Did I mention I WANT To win DONUTS?? Check out Jen...she is on the news! WTG!!

Donuts......

So I have been reading on facebook all weekend how Jen from Prior Fat Girl has been eating donuts! I had to check her blog this morning to see what this was all about. What did I find??

HOLEY DONUTS!

A contest to win some dooonuuuutttss and I WANT TO WIN!!

If you dont read her blog, please go, read and be insprired!

The weeeeekend

So the weekend is over. WAHH

I got a ton done around my house. Floors cleaned, bathroom cleaned, kitchen's mostly sparkly and I got both kids room sorted out. Out with most of the winter clothes and filled their drawers with shorts for summer and weeded out some more toys for the garage sale in a few weeks.

My eating was not perfect at all, I had 2 meals that were not in line with my diet, but I lost 2.4lbs, so it didn't totally ruin me.

I worked out this morning and feel so much better when I do. Having girly problems last week kept me from a few workouts, but I'M BACK IN ACTION!

This morning I got some YUM recipes from Super Trainer and cant wait to try them out this week. I sent him an email and told him NO way on the meal replacement bars. I just found myself SKIPPING that meal instead of eating them. Which is a HUGE NO NO so I hope he can incorporate something else in the plan for those.

Below is a yummy one we made last week and I we will eat again this week. Even P liked them minue the cilantro and bell peppers!

foooood

Here are some foods that I am eating these days. Lots of oatmeal, fruit, tuna, wheat bread and who knew I would be ever eating FLAX seed in stuff!

My protein shakes. I drink 1/2 of one before the gym and a full on as my "snack" after dinner.

Yucky plain oatmeal.....I do miss my Maple and Brown sugar instant
Flax...so far I have only put this into some meal replacement bars so I cant honestly say I "know" what it tastes like alone. I hear you can sprinkle it on oatmeal and cereal and such.

A chicken stirfry I made this week. TASTY!