Another Monday

Well I am in a slump...trying to dig my way out and not ruin the past few weeks of progress over night.

I ate pretty crappy this weekend, didnt work out or drink enough water. I just wish I could get the excited feeling that I read some of you have when you are losing. The WILL to keep moving and losing. I feel stuck...like I cant get the motivation or determination to get moving! I didnt work out this am, was too tired....it was 70 degrees on my way to work...got up to 106 yesterday. I went to my sisters to swim, which meant a bathing suit, fortunatly it was just a few of us gals and no one cares, but I felt like a FAT WHITE WHALE. It was depressing. So I HAVE to work out at home. I am going to move my elliptical back into the livingroom. Our office has no a.c and I just know I WONT go in there to workout if its that hot. I have Desperate Housewives to watch, so NO excuse!

And to top it off..I can shake the I WANT another baby feeling. There are at least 10 reasons why we should not have any more kids. I have always felt two would be good, once of each....and now this urge for another?? I am heavy..dont want to get prego and gain again, we have NO money...no room in our house.....but I know if we were to decide to have another (after MUCH Praying) God would get us through....show us our path as He always does.

so far today I had some coffee, some oatmeal and a bunch of water...hoping to get JOLT myself into feeling better and make better decisions.