Fat Free Friday...

I am sad to finally admit that I have gained back weight. I knew I had....but last Friday I finally hopped on the scale and about had a stroke. I was down to 195 and on Friday was at 208.6. Thats just GROSS. In a bit more than a month I managed to gain back 13lbs. How is that even possible. All of my clothes were tight and I was living in the dark by not weighing myself.

I got back on track last week with my eating which was where I was suffering big time. So today I am happy to report a loss of 2.2. I needed to see a loss this morning and cant wait to see how much I lose next week with adding another day of cardio and cutting out the coffee.

I ran this morning...its getting cooler and darker at 5:45 so I am glad I have a partner to run with. We just do a run around my housing development so we are not to far from home. So I am thinking ahead to the time change....it will be darker and I wont run in the pitch black. I am hoping by then I can afford a gym membership because I cant workout any later than 5:45 and I never seem to be able to get in a real workout at night...to tired etc.

Operation FAT Blaster

I joined the OFB site today. So far I like what I see!

The Special Ops Mission for this week was to post that "thing" that is standing in our way. For me I feel like I have definitely got the working out part down. At least enough to get a loss if only my food was on track! For me its two things...

I love Starbucks. Starting Monday I will cut out this habit. NO MORE COFFEE! Its going to be hard, but I will do it. They are everywhere....on the corner near my house and right as I exit the freeway for work. Its my morning enemy!

The 2nd big problem I have is THREE PM! It hits this hour during the day and I get the munchies. So I need to come prepared and avoid 7-11 snacks! It really doesn't matter what snacky type food it is, I just like to munch. I am tired, praying for work to end....and I mindless munch, most of the time on crap food.

Ya well I am sure I could fill up a whole blog post about the other things standing in my way but for now I will start with these two things. No more coffee and no more snacking on Crap. I mean I can sit here and mindless chomp away on carrots and its looooow calories! So next week that's my plan!

Upcoming Events

I have decided to sign up for 2 more runs. The SF one depending on childcare. Since hubby does worship at church Sundays and has to be there at 7am, I have to see if someone can take care of my kids that morning.

http://onyourmarkevents.com/Applications/BackToSchool.pdf

This one I hear is awesome!

http://www.bridgetobridge.com/

I have 7 weeks until Sept 19th. I am hoping to lose 15lbs by then and get much more training in for the 10K!

Legs after running six miles...and some random thoughts

So the day after the race I was sore...but it felt good. I had the day off, I got a pedicure and laid around ALL day. Hubby cooked us dinner (YAY!) and the only thing I did all day was take/pick up my kids from daycare. It was fab..... Tuesday my legs are fine. I walked 2 miles in the morning, slathered up my sunburned skin and went to work. Today I woke up at 5:30 and stretched for my run with my friend. We took off and OUCH...wow ok so my legs are SORE!! Surprisingly my knees are fine, its my groin and calves that hurt. We ran a mile and walked the 2nd mile. I feel good that I got out and did it...

Tonight I will elliptical.....workout some of the soreness.

I started reading a book called "The Power of a Praying Wife". This book was given to me by my running partner a few months ago and had been collecting dust since. After my down in the dumps post last week she emailed me reminding me she gave me that book and that I should get it out and read it. So I did..and WOW that book is JUST what I needed to read right now. Every paragraph is as if she was writing to me. I am feeling so full of God! I am working on letting go of my expectations of the people around me, mostly my hubby. Giving my fears of money and my stress of daily life to God...letting Him carry me through rather than relying on myself or hubby. I realized a few things as I am reading this book:

1. I cant afford not to take care of myself....spiritually, mentally and physically. I need to pray everyday, workout everyday, eat right and treat myself the way I treat others.

2. I need to respect my husband at all times and remember all the good qualities he possesses instead of dwelling on all the negative. He loves God, he loves me and he kids, he does occasionally help with the housework, dinner, kids etc, he uses his musical talents to lead worship both for the congregation and for the high school youth and he is a very affectionate, caring man.

3. I am to be the heart of the home....not the head. I have tried to take on ALL roles of the family myself. I am not the man, not meant to be the head of the household, and although sometimes I might feel as though hubby is not doing the best job at it, I have to let him do it...and maybe he will fail, but in the end it will teach us both and make him a stronger leader of our family.

I am signing up for a 10K in Sept. Giving me a month and a half to train and lose some more weight. I cant wait to see how easy it feels to run a 10K with 25lbs less fat on my body.

I DID IT!!

Well sadly I dont have any great pictures of me running since my hubby has the worst time getting to the finish line with the kids. 15,000 runners is ALOT!

It was the 2nd most amazing experience of my life (next to giving birth!) I got there about an hour ahead of time. Stretched and waited for my friend to get there. We lined up and were off. We were near the back so it took about 22 mins to go just the first mile. (Next year I will go more to the front). The weather was beautiful and they had bands playing through the course. There were a few pretty big hills but I managed to do WAY more running than walking. I finished a minute over the alloted time....but I finished (with some happy tears as I crossed the finish line) and feel so PROUD!

Sorry the pics are so small, but they are from their website and cant be made larger.

Help...

So I see some of you mention you have notifications when the blogs you follow update their blog. How do I do this??

I ran/walked 3 miles this morning. I kept getting a pain in my right thigh. I am feeling really good. Amazing what a few days of eating healthy can do for a person! Now if the scale would get moving back down I would be even happier.

Tuesday and cake

So yesterday was good. I stayed on plan and drank my protein shakes. I woke up feeling good today. I should have ran, but I decided to wait and do Weds, walk a few miles Thurs and run again friday. I am having a really bad AF this month and the fact that she showed up a week early is annoying.

Cake...I have been getting a few cake orders here and there. I am enjoying it so much! A cake decorator is what I want to be when I grow up LOL! Never in a million years did I ever expect to a an accountant. I wanted to be a nurse growing up, I guess probably because my mom was. Then in high school I was thinking I wanted to be an English Teacher. When I graduated I started college with no real set goal in mind and found a job as a admin. I really worked hard and enjoyed my job and was promoted very quickly to the accounting department. I have had 3 really good jobs, each that has taught me more and more about accounting and moved me up to the next level with no college degree. I dont love it, but I am good at it. Right now I am working for a company that makes armor for tanks. I do the collections, so I get to call and harp on people about money all day. Someday...I will be my own boss and make cakes!!

I'm Back...

Ok so today I am feeling back with it. Despite having a bad morning, I am happy and feeling better. I started AF a week early, maybe last week was a bunch of hormones that I was expecting.

I have my run on Sunday. Luckily I was able to take off Monday so I can recoup! My hubby and kids are going with me to cheer me on and then we are staying in Santa Cruz after the race to hang out at the beach with some friends!

I ran 2 miles this am. I will do 4 miles tomorrow and do the full 6 miles on Thurs, then rest until Sunday morning!

I weighed in this morning and was UP big time. I am not counting it or changing my ticker until next Monday after week of solid eating and water drinking. So far I have had my protein shakes today and have my chicken and rice for lunch.

Off to catch up with you ladies!

Funky

In a funk today. One of those days where you want to be alone somewhere...no kids, no husband, no work, no phone...maybe a big comfy bed or a pedicure chair. I got up and ran, only a mile, just wasnt feeling it. Came home and fell back asleep to my husband telling me it was 7:15..um ok Im late! Then I get in the car, KLOVE is on with Selah. The host is talking about how she lost someone and hadnt taken the time to grieve. I feel like I am ok most of the time about my losing my mom, I only feel sad when it hits me unexpected that she is gone. Like when I am driving home and think to call her....nope, or see a picture of her....that I wasnt expecting to see (posted by someone else on facebook). So I have never grieved anyone, maybe I have not fully accepted that she is gone, maybe that combined with the stresses of money and life and weight right now are all bundled together in this massive feeling of being lost and confused.

I know part of my problem is I am SO far away from God right now. I see and feel little things that are Him pulling me back, trying to get me to reconnect, but I am resisting and I dont know why. I believe, I go to church, I know he has/will forgive me when I do reach out to him again.

Just waiting for my cloud to lift.....

Fruit

So I am in charge of fruit for my small group bbq tonight. I have seen these made and thought they are so cute..but not 65$ cute LOL! So I decided to give it a try. I will say now I see why they charge so much, but I now know some techniques and could probably do it faster if there is a next time.

This might actually get me to eat fruit!

Tuesday Tuesday

I went and ran 3 miles this morning. About died....but I did it! Tonight I plan to add some new music to my ipod. I am tired of my mix right now.

I had a low cal day yesterday, but decided today that I am going to go back to what worked for me when I lost weight 6 years or so ago.

I was eating the following:
B: protein shake
S: protein shake
L: Chicken breast, brown rice and a veggie
S: protein shake or fruit
D: Same as lunch

I was working out 45 mins a day on the elliptical and the weight FELL off me! This is about 1200 cals a day and totally doable once the first week or so are under my belt. I plan to grocery shop tonight and prepare a bunch of chicken and rice so that each night I can pack it up for lunch at work. I have a my protein shakes already and plan to get a few pieces of fruit for the rest of the week. I DONT like fruit....but I know it helps satisy my sweet cravings that I get every now and again.

I hope if I can get back into the habit of this eating for a month or so and the weight comes back off that I will be motivated enough to stay working on it. When I lost before I got to 155lbs ish and was able to maintain there until I got pregnant eating regular food just not OVER eating it. By the time I had lost 45 lbs I was feeling so good I didnt want to eat the CRAP that I am now.

Gotta DIG DEEP!

Back on track

Man its been a crazy weekend and I ate my way through it. I just cant seem to get a handle on my eating!! Like excuse after excuse of why its ok just this once BLAH!

We had my Father in law and his girlfriend in town for the weekend. It was bbq after bbq and lots of drinking. I am scared to weigh myself, although I am hoping some of the running is helping to counteract all my gross eating.

I have been guzzling water today and had my oatmeal, my hands are swollen and my ring wont come off.

I will come back tomorrow with a more interesting upbeat post.

long time no write

Sorry for the lack of posting. With the 4thof July and sick kids....then I got sick too. I am back at work today after taking the last two days off. Hubby is out of town at camp and I have watched all the chick flick movies that are out at Red Box. Also made a few practice cakes and had my first official sale..of course I ran right out and bought a bunch of new supplies.

I have not worked out, but eating has been decent. Not as much night snacking since hubby is gone and I have no one to share popcorn with. He comes home tomorrow and early Friday morning I will be out running 4 miles...my run is coming up!

Off to read some of your blogs and find out whats been going on with you!

Thursday

Ahhhh finally my Friday. I love having 3 day weekend espeically when its a holiday. This year for budget reasons (which I dont fully understand) they are doing fireworks in my town on Friday night instead of Sat. We have some good friends that live near the ball park so we can sit in their front lawn and watch the show and NOT have to deal with the traffic! We are going to bbq and enjoy the show.

Saturday will be low key. Probably going to my sisters for a bbq and some swimming. Lots of laundry and packing since my hubby leaves for church camp Sunday after church. He will be gone until Thurs of next week. This is his first year going to camp as the official "Worship Leader". He is pumped and has some great music planned for the kids! I will take this week to catch up on some sewing, bake a few practice cakes and sleep!! The bad part is I wont be able to run in the morning all week since he wont be home while the kids are sleeping. So I will have to rely on the elliptical to keep me going.

Speaking of GOING...I ran 4 miles today!!!! It took me an hour, which is in line with the hour and a half I have to run my six miles for my race later this month. I had to walk here and there to catch my breath. My ipod ran out of batteries so I did alot of praying for God to keep my legs going!

Thanks to you that checked out my new blog. I know having a weight loss blog linking to a cake blog is probably MEAN, but I wanted to get some opinions on the layout.

Thurs calories:
Coffee:80
Oatmeal: 120

My sweet boy playing with his new birthday firetruck

Divine Desserts

www.divine-desserts.blogspot.com

Check out my new blog...for my cake business I am just getting started.

Weds

I didnt post yesterday but wanted to log my food. As you can see I get stuck on a lunch item and eat it everyday until I cant anymore LOL

Weds - 1230 cals
Oatmeal: 120
Coffee: 80
Salad: 0
Chicken :120
Parm cheese: 55
Dressing: 90
Diet A&W: 0
Fiber One Bar: 130
Chips: 180
Cheese: 60
Sour Cream: 45
Avacado: 90
Chicken: 120
Milk: 140