hopeful

So its been HOT here....over 100 for days in a row. We have been doing tons of swimming. Trying to stay cool and keep busy. I have less than 4 weeks left at home. Bittersweet. I love being home..but truly NOT cut out to be a stay at home mom.

My son is three today. Hardly seems possible that I had him that long ago and that I have ANOTHER kid!

We have 2 wedding to go to this coming weekend/week. I went to Kohl's to search for a dress. Came out with a cute top to wear with a black skirt instead. I dont wear dresses typically so I am not sure why I went searching for one. At least the top I can wear to work when I go back. I am still having problems with my stomach being so wiggly and still sticking out a bit even though I am at my pre-preg weight. I need to lose at least 10lbs before I go back to work to avoid wearing maternity pants back!!

Cereal

So I have discovered over the past weeks I have been home that cereal is a BIG trigger for me. I eat a normal size, measured out bowl of healthy cereal. AND I WANT MORE! and more and more. I swear I could eat an entire box! I eat good for me cereal with low fat milk....why oh why do I want a trough of it! LOL

weigh in

-.8

Not super pretty, but its DOWN which is good. I have only been counting points for 3 days, so I think next week will show a bigger loss.

6/22 Food Log

not a super pretty lunch today

Fiber bar 2
Pizza 14 (bbq chicken)
soda 5
salad 0
ranch 3
homemade nachos 12 (chips, cheese, sour cream, avacado, olives)
popcorn 2
Diet A&W 0

Total points 38
Water 48 oz

Weight Watchers

I want to join, but to cheap to spend 40$ a month. So I got out all my old books and my points calculator. My handy notebook and pen for logging what I eat. My friend checked my points and since I am bf I get 38! That seems like a LOT! So today marks day one....

Sat is my sons party. He is turning three...makes me sad, its hard to believe he is almost 3! He wants a Toy Story party. We are doing pizza and cupcakes at the water park since it will probably be about 90 degrees out. I am going to make some Woody sheriff badges and some Jessie cowgirl hat cookies for favors. I was doing really great with my cake business, then got pregnant, got tired and haven't put much effort into it. So I am going to spend the next few weeks making stuff to get business going again.

Day one:
cheese stick 2
fiber bar 2
bagel thin 1
egg 2
turkey 1
mayo 3
sprite 3
pretzels 2
green salad with bacon bits and ranch 3 (Wendy's)
baked potato with butter and sour cream 7
root-beer 3
animal cookies 3
Popcorn 2
Apple juice 2

36 points today.
32 oz of water

Friendships

I love to read other weight loss blogs. They inspire me to keep going. From being heavy to doing a bikini competition to crossing over into ONEderland. The happiness I feel for people I don't even know is awesome. What a wonderful community here in bloggyland. Which brings me to a problem I just recently realized I had. I have been struggling lately with friendships. I typically only have a few friends at a time, its just how I roll.

Right now my best friend and I live a couple hours apart, don't talk much and I am totally disconnected from her no matter how hard I try to keep close. We have been best friends for 10 years, both have young kids, but life just gets in the way.

I have another friend that I share a lot of weight loss stuff with as well as some personal stuff since she is BIL's gf. I really enjoy her company, but again we are a few hours away from each other so there is little to no time for "girl" time.

I have another great friend whom I have never met, she is my best friend right now despite us never meeting. Her and her family are coming to visit us next month and I am SO EXCITED! We have so much in common, from little things to big things...we share weight loss struggles, kid ups and downs, husband crap...even have tattoos in same places LOL hmm I hope she is real ;)

I had a really great friend who lived close and we did a lot together....she recently moved to another state.

Which brings me to the current. I really have no good friends in my town, that I can chat with, hang out with etc. I have such a hard time putting myself out there to create friendships. My sister and SIL both live here, so I hang out with them alot, but I always feel like I am either left out of fun plans or I have to sort of invite myself to things. They both have tons of friends and are just both "good" at having friends I guess. I'm not sure what I need to do to make myself more accessible as a friend....how to put myself out there more...

One a much different note....Tonight is my nieces bridal shower. Its hard to believe that my oldest niece and oldest nephew are getting married and both have babies....at the same time I had my 3rd! Makes me feel old!

Weigh in

I am down 2.4 lbs today. I cant say I did much to "earn" that loss, but I will take it either way. It just dawned on me that I only have FIVE weeks until my 10k and I have yet to do anything to prepare for it. So starting tonight I am going to get on it. Hoping to get some good walking/running done once it cools off tonight.

I am finding it near impossible to sit down and blog my thoughts daily. I get the kids down for a nap and I either clean something or nap myself. Josiah is getting into a night groove slowly. He eats around 11pm, eats around 3am, and then from there is a bit sporadic. I am hoping in the next few weeks he can eat at 3am and then sleep until 7am when the other kids are starting to get up.

Dang scale

So how is it that I weigh today and the scale said 214.4....thats almost 3 lbs lost LOL I guess next week will be a good weigh in ;)

Thanks for all of your nice comments!

and as Jen commented

"To get big results, you gotta give big effort" Isnt that the truth...I totally am doing a half ass job right now. But yesterday and today have been better, so thats a positive!

.6

Well I lost a measly .6 this week. SUCKY. I didnt give it full effort whats so ever. Its sooo hard to go from eating whatever I want to really paying attention.

We had bunco Monday night and EVERYONE there got sick yesterday with some 24 flu. It was rough. Aches, chills, throwing up, diarrhea and a fever. All came and went in 24. Josiah was there with me too and so far he has been ok, Thank God!

I had one cracker and one piece of toast all day yesterday and today only a little bit of chicken and some white rice just to be on the safe side. I feel starving, but too scared to make my stomach worse.

2

Well my eating wasn't on total point yesterday. We are having a family camp at church last night and the next two nights where they are serving bbq and different families bring sides and dessert. I had a hot dog, chips, cucumbers and some chocolate cake. Tonight I plan to SKIP the dessert. I swear it was like I never once thought "hey you are on plan here, don't eat that". Have to break that habit since I have been eating whatever I want for the past year!

I went to Walmart earlier today to find some shorts/capris to wear between now and when my old clothes actually fit again. I was wearing a 14 before I got preg, now I am almost the same weight and there is a good inch and a half to go before they will even button! I ended up with a 2 pairs of shorts and a pair of jean capris, one a 16m the other 2 18's. That made me sad, then determined to only be wearing those another month as I lose some weight and get this stomach shrunk back down a bit!

here are my before pics...also look bigger than I thought I did...but just more motivation to get moving!

Today I did 23 mins on the elliptical and burned 200 cals. Slowly working my way up to 45 mins! I think tonight I might do some light weights and sit-ups after church.

B: cheerios
S: handful of pretzel sticks, 4oz apple juice
L: smart one, water, lemonade

Day 1

so I ate WAY more than I needed to all weekend knowing I was starting fresh today. So I am starting at 217.8. My goal is 150, so a little over 65 lbs to lose. I can do it, have done it before...just will take some time!

I have to figure out how many calories I should aim for since I am breastfeeding still. I know I need to eat more than I would typically, but I also know that replacing soda with water and junk food with fruit and cheese wont hurt the baby LOL! any ideas on the calories?

Day one...elliptical 20 mins, 167 cals. I am dying LOL! It was slow going and lots of sweat! I decided to wait on joining the gym until I prove to myself I am on track with eating right and working out on my elliptical or walking/running. I am going to do the couch to 10K starting next Mon to get ready for my 10k at the end of July.

I took some before pics so I will get those posted soon.

I am feeling good that I chose working out over the nap I wanted. I think Josiah knew I had to start today, he gave me a 4 hour chunk of sleep last night. SO NICE!