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hank goodness for a new day...a fresh start....

THE BAD: So instead of eating my smart one like a good girl, I went to taco bell and paul made some yummy buttery popcorn and we hung out on the couch watching 24.

THE GOOD: I ate great all day instead of my old habits would have been well I messed up so I will start fresh on Monday. THAT NEVER works out good, so today has been successful. Dinner will be chinese with my parents, but I plan to eat light and SKIP the heavy saucy stuff.

AHH its hard having a birthday on week 4 of a diet....

Cake

I had some cake.....Chocolate cake with chocolate fudge filling. I have no idea how to calculate the points on it?? It was heavenly....delish.....and a must have for a birthday.

I also got some lotto tickets from a gal I work with and won $22! Now isnt that awesome!

I plan to have a smart one for dinner tonight. I told Paul it was PB&J night for him and the kids. I hope he did the dishes like I asked...there were a lot of them ;)

Strolling down memory lane...

Its my birthday...and I am 33. The age I swore I would be thin by....an age I used to think was old and that I would never make it too....is here....I'm 33 and still over weight, still struggling....BUT actually doing it this time.

I thought I would share a few pics I have on my fridge for inspiration.

This is me (with my mom)....going to prom in 1993. I was 145lbs, size 10....and had big hair LOL

This one is me in Maui. The trip that Paul asked me to be his wife. I was 160lbs and TAN...wow sooo tan and blond...ooooh so blond!! I thought I was fat.....seriously I would give a limb....ok maybe a toe to be this thin and tan right now! Well soon enough....Its only 35lbs away...and maybe a bunch of tanning sessions.

Chugging Along

That about sums it up. Im still not working out :( BOO ME! But I am feeling good...clothes are a tad looser. I am making better food choices and allowing myself little treats here and there with my points. So far this is the longest I have stuck to a diet err life change in years. Since 2004 really. I lost a bunch of weight then got pregnant with Jams...let the food flood gates open and got fat again. Which is why I thought I would do a blog to track my efforts. Maybe when I am thin again and add on 5lbs I can go back and read some of the old posts and see how sad being fat made me and LOSE it fast instead of gaining another 5 and so on.

Tomorrow is my birthday, my 33rd birthday WOW.... so there will be cake...and Outback (well on Sat) so I am going to allow myself to enjoy, but NOT to much. I am saving every last one of my 35 flex points for that night. Then Superbowl on Sunday....I am searching around for some low point snacks to have around so I can snack, but not over eat like I normally would.

Week 4

Well I can belive its week 4 and I have not had a breakdown and quit! GO ME!!

I did have jack in the box for dinner last night. BOO ME.....but I had not used any flex points this week so I think I probably used every last one with that meal. I will say I felt like DEATH after I ate it and still this morning.

Down 2lbs this week. 195. I actually saw 194.6 at one point, but I am sure the Jack in the box messed that up LOL!

Heres to a GREAT week 4!!!

A day off...

I had to take the day off yesterday...Jack has pink eye. I did ok with my eating. Stayed within my points, but man its hard to be home...out of my eating/water routine.

the scale has only budged a lb this week so far...so going to be extra good this weekend and hopefully bump the # up to 2lbs or so.

I cant wait for my clothes to start feeling a bit looser...maybe week 6-7??

Seriously can I please workout? I have yet to do that at week 3 and I know that I would be losing a tad more plus building my muscle back up. I just havent found the drive to add that extra into my week.

It was almost 70 degrees for over a week...um yeah nice time to at least walk outside...NOPE..and today its back to the rain!

Snacky McSnackerson

Why today can I not feel full?

Why today can I not stop the urge to want to eat?

I didnt even leave for lunch today in fear that the fat girl would take over the dieting girl and stop at her most favorite place to eat. TACO BELL

I have had a few snacks this afternoon. I am still well within my points and wont need to dig into my flex points. I need to go get a few more snacks that are a bit more filling, Maybe some turkey or bring an english muffin.

Im not hungry and I am pretty busy at work..but the BIG girl inside wants a snack LOL!

maybe I need to make a lap around the parking lot.

**coming tomorrow** Some skinny girl pics. Ones I have on my fridge for motivation. Ones I look back and think WOW I was HOT....and at the time the picture was taken I was thinking WOW I am FAT. Go figure!