Weekend 11/1 & 11/2

Saturday I did great in the morning...then 3pm rolled around and it was my niece and nephews birthday party.

b: cereal
l: chips with cheese, some pita chips, and one cucumber from the veggie tray and some cake and ice cream
d: lean cuisine
s: one oatmeal choc chip cookie

Sunday was not too good....
b: coffee, 3 bites of a donut
l: nachos at lunch with my parents and REAL pepsi
d: cereal and 2 pieces of toast
and a few chocolate donut holes here and there and some gold fish crackers, a couple diet a&w's in the mix

NO WORKING out...

why do I do this to myself. I had a good thing going and the weekend comes and I FAIL misserably.....well its called not thinking...I set out with this big plan in my head and dont follow through. I had NO intentions of eating Jack in the box on friday after the harvest festival, but as soon as Paul said..."You can have it once, you have done great all week"...I was ALL OVER IT. He is not the one with the fat body and low self esteem, why was I listening to him?? FOOLISH.

And saturday..I could have gotten some pita chips and some veggies and sat in the living room, but I didnt...I had a big thing of chips n cheese and SAT right next to the TABLE. WHY? FOOLISH!! P saw me eat the chips n cheese but didnt think a few would hurt, but didnt see me eating the cake since he was in the kitchen talking to my brother. I sat and I kept an eye on him...making sure to eat fast so he didnt see me. You would think this was a sign TO NOT EAT IT..not eat faster to avoid being seen. Then we had a couple of friends stop by and I am known to have a dessert or two around the house...I didnt have anything really so I made some oatmeal cookies I had in the freezer. They were good and luckily I only ate one...not six like I wanted too..but mostly because they were eaten up and NONE were left! Thank GOD for that.

Sunday: Should have had breakfast...not just coffee...which lead me to fail with the donut. When your parents said "where do you want to eat?" You should have said somewhere with a healthy salad." Not agreed on yummy mexican food just because it sounded good.

And remember the phone call you had with a certain someone on Sunday night. They had potato wedges and onion rings for dinner and topped it off with a piece of chocolate cake..then were talking about stopping at Dairy Queen. YOU DONT WANT TO BE THIS WAY...I love this peron more than she will ever know...and am so sad to think she has given up living and not fighting off all the medical problems she has.

So mental note to myself....DONT SET YOURSELF UP FOR FAILURE (sitting in the kitchen NEXT to the food) and DONT LISTEN TO P when he tells you that you are doing well and can have a little treat. You are FAT and shouldnt have a treat until your are NOT FAT....you have low self esteem and HATE getting dressed because you FEEL FAT.....

stick to your damn diet over the weekend and you will actually LOSE some weight!!!