Breathe

The auditors are gone. Finally some down time. I know we will still be getting requests next week, but at least they are not here in OUR FACES!

I have sucked all week. Back to my old excuses. I had camp, I ate decent for the most part, but also ate some crap. I didnt get the water in that I needed to. I did not follow the plan AT all this week. I came home from camp and was up 2lbs :( Then came back to work Tuesday with my food all packed and planned out. And didnt eat it. Dumb excuses....then weds we had a work bbq, I let myself use more bad excuses. I am full of them! I dont want to be the FAT girl full of excuses anymore.

I am re-committed to myself, to the plan, to Allan and the other challengers! I am going to enlist my hubby for help. It seems to always be my last resort. Having him hold me accountable sucks, but I NEED someone who is around me all the time to be there to shake the finger at me when I want to cave. He is great for encouragement. So each day the meal list for the day will be posted on the fridge

I know I need to do this for myself. But I also look at my kids who are all super skinny and PRAY they never have to go through this. I also know they dont eat as healthy as they could because I dont. THAT has to CHANGE!

So back on plan, back to working out like I KNOW I can, pushing myself. NO MORE FREAKING excuses, back to putting myself FIRST for at least an hour a day. I have to keep reminding myself how GOOD I feel after I workout, after I say NO to crappy food and make good choices. That feeling is SO MUCH better than the feeling of failure!

NO MORE FAILURE!

Love the post that Charlie has up today. She has a GREAT blog!

Jen