Monday 9/29

so my weekend was decent. Had a couple of coffees and some mac and cheese last night. Didnt workout, but didnt go HOG wild like I usually do.

Monday:
B: Banana
L: smart one
S: pretzels

Friday 9/26

wow my mid section is hurting! Who knew belly dancing could provide sore muscles LOL! I enjoyed that one and plan to add it into my weekly routine.

Still at 188 today, but thats ok. I am very proud that I have done so well this week and will continue to do so all weekend! I hope Monday shows a few more lbs gone!

B: banana, water
L: Caesar salad
D: sausage, noodles, brocoli and I SKIPPED the pumpin pie and cool whip for dessert!
S: small bowl of crispex (dry)

today my kids got into a car accident while running errands with their sitter. Jams is fine, Jack is all banged up :( He has a black eye and forehead, scratches under and above his eye. It was almost swollen shut by the time I got to the ER.

Now all the mommy guilt is taking its toll. Do I find a new sitter who doesnt have other kids she has to take and pickup from school? Right now we just cant afford for them to be in a daycare center where I know they are better off and it kills me. Makes me feel like somehow I have failed them and that I had to stick them some where they are not safe. Which my brain knows isnt the case. Their sitter is a nice lady who takes great care of them....and the accident could have happened when they were being watched by me, my mom...anyone.

Thursday

so another good day!

B: oatmeal, water
L: salad
D: Mongolian bbq (noodles, meat, bean sprouts and cabbage)
S: few handfuls of Crispix cereal

20 min belly dancing workout.

Wednesday

b: English muffin
l: Caesar salad, water
d: spaghetti, salad

Tonight is small group but I still plan to do my 20 mins of cardio after we get home and get the kids to bed.

I weighed in at 188.2 this morning...so down 3.5lbs since Monday. I'm sure some of its water weight because good ole AF is still making her appearance. I swear the IUD is the culprit. Zits...cramps, periods all over the place....UGH!

I managed to avoid the brownies and coffee cake we took to small group and did a 20 min upper body workout when I got home.

Tuesday

I want a Mr. Goodbar.....

but instead I ate

NOTHING for breakfast because my work ran out of bowls.
L: smartone, water
D: chicken breast, 2 potatoe fries and corn
S: Diet a&w and popcorn

I didnt exercise. AF is still lingering and making me feel like crapola!!

Back to the grind

I know I know how many times have I said this? A GAZILLION Im sure!

I weighed in today and was back up to 191.7lbs. WHAT? I knew I gained..pants were tighter but never imagined it was 12lbs BACK :(

Mondays eating:
B: oatmeal, water
L: salad, water
D: Turkey meatballs, rice, greenbeans, diet a&w
S: popcorn, diet a&W

I did a show on FIT TV today. It was 20 mins and combined light weights with upperbody, squats and situps. I am proud for having a great day.

I am committing to
1. drink only one diet soda a day and 8 glasses of water
2. work out 6 days this week for at least 20 mins


My goal is 150lbs by my 33rd birthday. 40lbs in 4 mos...I have done it before..actually lost more weight....it was HARD but I see the pics of myself at 155 and LOVE IT!

I posted a few pics on the sidebar, one is me at 221 (Aug 07), and one of me at 196 which was a few months ago.

I was at 213 by Oct of last year..and have managed to lose 23 more lbs in that past year. TO SLOW for my own good! So I am stepping it up! P has 20lbs to lose so he is on board and eating healthy and tonight is going out to run!

where does the time go?

so I suck. thats the end of the story. I have sucked at working out. Sucked on eating right, sucked on keeping up with this blog. Sucked at keeping my house clean, sucked at being a mom, sucked at being a wife....

today is a new day. I didnt even weigh myself knowing it would be HIGH...real HIGH. Im sure I have crept back on at least 10lbs. I know thats what my clothes are telling me.

I am emotionally spent today...but I know out of all the crap going on in my life..this is the ONLY thing I have control over.....the only thing....so I better TAKE CONTROL!