10/31 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

b:oatmeal, water
l: lean cuisine
d: one hot dog

then it got ugly

10pm: Jack in the box....potato wedges and a chicken sandwich and a sprite.

So tonight is our harvest festival at church and I WILL be having a hot dog, but just one..and no popcorn, cotton candy OR candy! And then I have to come home after and workout....boooo but I took TWO days off in a row and I cant make it 3 or I will slowly be caving back into my old habits.

no workout, just fat intake. HUGE SIGH!

but I have YET to eat one piece of halloween candy. I will take what I can get LOL

10/30

no workout for me today. I made excuses...so now I have to workout on saturday...my normal day off! WAHH!

B:oatmeal
L: potato, side salad, water
d: burrito bowl from Chipotle (rice, beans, meat, lettuce and a smidge of cheese) and NO CHIPS!
s: diet a&w

and I still have not eaten ONE SINGLE cake ball that I made NOR had one piece of Halloween candy!

10/29

191

-3lbs

YAY ME!

b: banana bread, water

l: baked potato, side salad, water

s: fiber bar, oatmeal...STARVING today!

d: ham, too much mac n cheese, corn

no work out today.

Tuesday 10/28

B: oatmeal, water
L: 1/2 caesar wrap from Togos, water
D: Smart One, water, Diet A&W

Tomorrow is weigh in day. I cheated and peeked today and saw 191 even. WOW I hope that its at least that tomorrow when P looks down and views the dreaded scale with me. He is gone so much at night that he is not that hard ass he has been before when I asked him for help, but this time I feel better about doing it myself and am able to talk myself into working out instead of ignoring the voices in my head telling me to LAY on the couch. Granted it did take me until 8:15pm to talk myself into working out last night BUT I did it and FELT great after. I know that each day I do it, it will only make the next day easier.

Last night I worked up to 42 mins....watched the biggest loser on tv....felt GREAT afterwards!

Monday 10/27

B: oatmeal
L: baked potato, side salad, water
S: water LOL!
D: chicken breast, plain noodles and small scoop of corn
S: Fiber one bar, diet A&W

and FOURTY minutes on the elliptical. I read the 1st 8 chapters of Genesis (for small group) and then watched Paris Hiltons, My new BFF....sigh..what a waste of tv, but I watched the whole 45 mins LOL And I forgot to do situps. Maybe tomorrow!

The weekend

Friday I did great, worked out, ate healthy.

Sat the same. Ate good...didnt workout (my one day off during the week)

Sunday came. I got my normal before church Starbucks....after church we went to chilis. ALL down hill. Like in my head I knew I was eating for 6 but kept right on eating. Some cheese fries, chips and salsa. I got the soup and salad and ate the soup....got the salad to go and P forgot it. Probably better since it was covered in Caesar dressing and 2 sprites. I did however do the elliptical for 36 mins....less calories than my past few times but I was on longer...still working back up to 45 mins each workout.

Monday I plan to incorporate some situps in the mix GAG!

Seeking more for myself

3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4 Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

1 Peter 3:3-4

I find myself constantly worried about my outer appearance...worried about how I look in a certain shirt or are my jeans to tight. Instead I need to start focusing that time on God and how he can carry me through this journey.