TIRED

Today is a bad day...you know the days you wish you could blame being fat, unmotivated, and lazy on someone else.

I'm tired of spending so many minutes in my day thinking, worrying, stressing, obsessing over being fat. TIRED...

I'm tired of starting and stopping diets, change of "lifestyles" etc. How many times does it take for me to feel this way before I actually get off my ass and do something about it? I cant even count the # of times I have tried doing this....tried and FAILED...miserably. TIRED

I'm tired of making excuses for myself when I don't want to exercise or when I know I am eating something bad. TIRED

I'm tired of nothing fitting me, feeling my jeans dig into my gut when I sit, my bras leaving marks from being to tight and having fat rolls sticking out with ANY shirt I wear....TIRED

I'm tired of seeing the look on P's when when I eat something I shouldnt or fail another diet. Or when I ask him for encouragement and he doesnt say what I think he should. Why should he...he has been trying to help me with this weight things for years....he too is probably TIRED.

I'm TIRED of feeling TIRED