ahh finally

well I did it..the elliptical that is. I made myself get on last night after the kids were in bed. Fired up an episode of Private Practice on the computer and off I went. 28 mins later I was about to DIE.....my freezing office was a sauna LOL!

but I feel better...knowing I did it.....and will do it again tonight.

I remember back when I was running, how great it felt to have sweat dripping off me as I ran miles on the treadmill. I miss the way I felt...thin, running...and actually enjoying it. Months later running next to my best friend as we both sported pregnant bellies.....still enjoying it.....and then WHAM. HAD kids....got FAT..and stayed that way. I want my husband to be proud of me.....not that he ever says much about it, but I know how happy he was when I lost the weight years ago, how proud he was of me...how proud I was of myself.

I will be thin again, I will choose working out over cake and I will overcome the desires that creep into my head and make me want to choose food over being skinny. So many of you that I read about have done it...its my turn!!!