11/6 Day Two of the Cabbage Diet

B: cucumber
L: soup
S: carrots
D: soup and baked potato with butter
S:

11/5

Well I gained .6. POOPS but it was not a shock, I was glad that was the only damage I did after NOT working out right and eating bad all weekend!

And I did the elliptical this morning...but I think its too loud and woke up big J, so I had to workout watching Dora instead of Desperate Housewives SIGH!

B: watermelon
S: pear
L: cabbage soup, water
S: apple
D: cabbage soup, water

11/4

Well Bunco was ok....They had sushi GAG...so I had the chinese chicken salad, which I am sure wasnt the greatest, but hey it wasnt 3 slices of pizza. I also had 2 mini snickers and a few twizzlers.

b: oatmeal, water
l: smart one, potatoes and broc, water
s: fiber one bar
d: chipolte (soft tacos with meat, small bit of sour cream and lettuce), 5 chips

no workout, but I WILL GET UP TOMORROW....

and I will be starting the Cabbage Soup Diet tomorrow. Wish me luck. I did it a while back and lost 9lbs, and gained a little back, so I think it will help get me comfortably into the 180's and I will STAY ON COURSE and keep it off!!

11/3

B: oatmeal
S: string cheese
L: smart one beans n rice

I need to buy some almonds....mmm they sound delish!!

Dinner is at Bunco tonight. Another test of my will-power. Each table has cups of candy on them as well as the hostess serving dinner. I PRAY its something decent that I can eat....and I WONT BE HAVING SECONDS. I CANT!!!

and after...at 9pm..I have to come home and workout :( If I hadnt taken soo many days off Im sure it wouldnt seem soooo bad to me..but well its been 5 days!!

Weekend 11/1 & 11/2

Saturday I did great in the morning...then 3pm rolled around and it was my niece and nephews birthday party.

b: cereal
l: chips with cheese, some pita chips, and one cucumber from the veggie tray and some cake and ice cream
d: lean cuisine
s: one oatmeal choc chip cookie

Sunday was not too good....
b: coffee, 3 bites of a donut
l: nachos at lunch with my parents and REAL pepsi
d: cereal and 2 pieces of toast
and a few chocolate donut holes here and there and some gold fish crackers, a couple diet a&w's in the mix

NO WORKING out...

why do I do this to myself. I had a good thing going and the weekend comes and I FAIL misserably.....well its called not thinking...I set out with this big plan in my head and dont follow through. I had NO intentions of eating Jack in the box on friday after the harvest festival, but as soon as Paul said..."You can have it once, you have done great all week"...I was ALL OVER IT. He is not the one with the fat body and low self esteem, why was I listening to him?? FOOLISH.

And saturday..I could have gotten some pita chips and some veggies and sat in the living room, but I didnt...I had a big thing of chips n cheese and SAT right next to the TABLE. WHY? FOOLISH!! P saw me eat the chips n cheese but didnt think a few would hurt, but didnt see me eating the cake since he was in the kitchen talking to my brother. I sat and I kept an eye on him...making sure to eat fast so he didnt see me. You would think this was a sign TO NOT EAT IT..not eat faster to avoid being seen. Then we had a couple of friends stop by and I am known to have a dessert or two around the house...I didnt have anything really so I made some oatmeal cookies I had in the freezer. They were good and luckily I only ate one...not six like I wanted too..but mostly because they were eaten up and NONE were left! Thank GOD for that.

Sunday: Should have had breakfast...not just coffee...which lead me to fail with the donut. When your parents said "where do you want to eat?" You should have said somewhere with a healthy salad." Not agreed on yummy mexican food just because it sounded good.

And remember the phone call you had with a certain someone on Sunday night. They had potato wedges and onion rings for dinner and topped it off with a piece of chocolate cake..then were talking about stopping at Dairy Queen. YOU DONT WANT TO BE THIS WAY...I love this peron more than she will ever know...and am so sad to think she has given up living and not fighting off all the medical problems she has.

So mental note to myself....DONT SET YOURSELF UP FOR FAILURE (sitting in the kitchen NEXT to the food) and DONT LISTEN TO P when he tells you that you are doing well and can have a little treat. You are FAT and shouldnt have a treat until your are NOT FAT....you have low self esteem and HATE getting dressed because you FEEL FAT.....

stick to your damn diet over the weekend and you will actually LOSE some weight!!!

10/31 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

b:oatmeal, water
l: lean cuisine
d: one hot dog

then it got ugly

10pm: Jack in the box....potato wedges and a chicken sandwich and a sprite.

So tonight is our harvest festival at church and I WILL be having a hot dog, but just one..and no popcorn, cotton candy OR candy! And then I have to come home after and workout....boooo but I took TWO days off in a row and I cant make it 3 or I will slowly be caving back into my old habits.

no workout, just fat intake. HUGE SIGH!

but I have YET to eat one piece of halloween candy. I will take what I can get LOL

10/30

no workout for me today. I made excuses...so now I have to workout on saturday...my normal day off! WAHH!

B:oatmeal
L: potato, side salad, water
d: burrito bowl from Chipotle (rice, beans, meat, lettuce and a smidge of cheese) and NO CHIPS!
s: diet a&w

and I still have not eaten ONE SINGLE cake ball that I made NOR had one piece of Halloween candy!