Heading in the right direction

So I peeked at the scale..and have a loss. That is keeping me moving....

I didn't get to the gym for my weights this am, but I WILL do them tonight and then my 30 mins on the elliptical.

My eating is so boring its not worth posting. I figure if I try a good recipe (Most are coming from the Biggest Loser cookbook) I will pass them along.

Last night after small group me and a friend made 70 chocolate flowers for the 70 cupcakes I have to make tonight for the ladies tea at church on Sat. Luckily my friend took some cake mix home and will do half for me at her house. I am always asked to bring dessert...no wonder I am FAT LOL!

I got some bad news last night about my mom...not really weight related, but a trigger that normally would make me eat. She had a CT scan on her lungs and they found more tumors. They haven't figured out if its cancer or not yet and even if it is she is too weak to do chemo, nor would she want to. Also the weird dreams she is having are most likely caused by the tumor on her adrenal gland and most likely cant be fixed. The doctor gave some vague answers so its hard to know what is FACT and what is a what IF. She seemed ok with the new things going, I think in her mind she is ready to die, which makes me so sad I get sick thinking about it, but I get it. I mean I wouldn't want to live my life in major pain everyday and I surely don't want her to suffer everyday. I just lift her up to God daily in hopes that he can give her a miracle or at least some peace and answers to her medical mysteries.

Day 3 is HARD

so I did my elliptical for my stroll last night. Today I have to take a walk at lunch and another round on the elliptical tonight, but as for the gym today is a day off.

I am struggling today with my food. I just want something ...something to fill me up. I miss that full feeling....and its only been 2 days LOL! How sad is it that I miss feeling bloated and full from eating something gross. I WONT cheat, I WONT eat anything other than my plan today, I know it will soon pass.

Todays plan
Oatmeal and protein shake
Meal replacement bar
Turkey con carne
Half of an apple (I ran out of bananas) and some turkey lunchmeat
Tonight for dinner is supposed to be stir fry, but Paul has to help out at the Jr youth at church and I have small group, so I am not sure exactly the plan at this point.

Heading in the right direction

So today I took a day off. I took the kids to daycare and headed to a friends house. We drove to Galt to the flea market, then headed to Joanns (my favorite store), goodwill, a scrap store and Target. We had a good time despite not finding anything to exciting.

In my old world there would have definitely been a stop at Starbucks before we headed out, but NOT TODAY! WOOT! I was worried not being home or at work to eat my meals planned for the day, but I did GREAT! I ate my oatmeal and shake before the gym (where I did 30 mins of cardio), had my toast right after I went....then packed a protein shake, some turkey and and an apple for the outing. I got home around 1, ate my tuna sandwich, 1 meal replacement bar for snack and for dinner made turkey tenders and brown rice with spinach and feta. I posted the recipe because it was tasty and I am not a brown rice fan!

Dana's spinach and feta brown rice (biggest loser cookbook)

1/4 cup chopped sweet onion (I didn't use that much, but make sure to use it adds great flavor)
1 tsp minced garlic
1 cup cooked brown rice (I used the Uncle Ben's orange bag, that cooks in the micro in 90 secs)
1 cup chopped fresh spinach leaves
3 tbs (about 3/4 oz) crumbled fat free feta cheese
Salt and black pepper to taste

Lightly mist a small nonstick skillet with olive oil spray. Set over medium heat for 30 secs. Add onion and garlic. Cook, stirring occasionally for 4-6 mins or until tender, not letting it brown. Add the rice and spinach. Cook, stirring constantly for 3-5 mins or until spinach is almost completely wilted. Stir in the feta cheese. Season with salt and pepper and serve immediately.

Makes 2 servings (1/2 cup)
137 cals
5g protein
27g carb
less than one g fat
3g fiber
192 mg sodium

I am hopping on the elliptical in a bit to do my 30 min stroll to keep my body moving!

A pic of dinner

My daughter showing off her dinner

Starting Fresh

Well today starts day one of my new journey....with a plan..with a goal!! I am excited.

This morning started out good. I DIDNT want to get outa of bed....I banged the alarm clock until the last possible second 5:18am. I got up, got dressed, stumbled to the kitchen to get my water, towel and my workout sheet for today....noticed my cell phone was lit up. It was my friend...she wasnt going to the gym. I stood there excited that I was going back to bed, then I thought um hello its day one....your up, dressed and half way out the door. GET MOVING.

Got to the gym did my 5 mins warm up and stretches...then lunges and arms curls and situps and ouch ......the list goes on .....a ton of lifting today and I am already sore!

Today starts a new chapter in my life. A new me is emerging. I used to be soo strong. I could lift way more than I can now. So thats my determination...to get STRONG again! It feels good to be strong!! I do remember that feeling!

So today I have a day of meals planned out (by my super trainer and BIL)

After the gym: 1 slice of white bread with 1 tsp jam (95 cals)
Meal 1: 1/3 cups oats (100 cals), 1/2 Scoop EAS Protein Powder (60 cals)
Meal 2: 1 1/2 Meal Replacement Bars (his own recipe) (150)
Meal 3: Open Face Tuna Sandwich(180)
Meal 4:1 Medium (6") banana (100) & Turkey slices (60 cals)
Meal 5: 4 Wedges - Southwest Chicken Pile Up (356)
Meal 6: 1 Scoop EAS Protein Powder (120 cals)

Tonight I will do 30 mins of low cardio on the elliptical.

Feeling GREAT...off to read about how some of you are doing!

Thanks for the comments, I LOVE THEM!

My top 10

My top 10 reasons for wanting to lose weight.

1. For God. I want to show God that I love myself as much as he does.

2. For myself, I need to prove to myself I can do this and be happy with my body!

3. For my health, there is so many heart problems, diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol in my family that I have to get in shape to avoid following down the same path.

4. For my husband. He has been with me through THICK and thin. Unfortunately more thick than thin, but I want him to be able to enjoy a hot sexy wife!

5. For my kids. I want them to be proud of me. I don't want to be the FAT mom on the sidelines watching the game, I want to be a coach or team mom and be able to keep up with them. I don't want them to EVER feel embarrassed or have them teased by other kids because of my weight.

6. I don't want my thighs to rub together anymore.

7. I want to shop in the smaller sections for clothes and not have to seek out the XL or XXL clothes.

8. To be able to swim with my kids.

9. To at least like the way I look in pictures

10. To only have ONE chin!!!!

Here I am.....

I have no excuses for not posting here more. I have time at work and just have neglected posting my eating. I have eaten healthy all week. Trying to stop when I am full and drink my water. I got a journal to carry around to start writing my food down in.

I have been to the gym 2 days this week and worked out on my elliptical at home one other day. So 3/4 days and I will go tomorrow ..so thats not bad!

However tomorrow night is my anniversary...Outback...beer....bowling...beer. I plan to eat whatever I want...

See come the new week I start a new plan...with a personal trainer...who happens to be my brother in law. He is formulating me a plan of eating the right foods and calories and what I need to do for my workouts to burn the most fat while gaining the most muscle.

The only thing he said that scared me was my goal weight....

ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY FIVE POUNDS!! WHAT? ME?? NO WAY??

but you know what? I WANT IT...I want to see if I can get there....might not be for a year, but crap I have not weighed under 150 lbs since I was 17 years old (16 years people)

This morning I pushed myself hard on the treadmill. I walked up hill for 15 mins (6.0 incline at 3.6 speed) then did 1 min intervals..from 3.5 walk to slow my heartrate to 4.2 then up to 5.2 for 15 mins, then I cooled off for 5 mins after that.

I FEEL GREAT TODAY!

The bad news...I am back up to 199lbs. I ahve been eating ok and working out so I am not sure what the deal is. I am getting my IUD taken out because of all the bad things I have read about it and weight gain. I dont need anymore help with that thankyouverymuch!

Tues 4.21.09

Food:

Oatmeal - 120 cals

Coffee - 80 cals

Water:

8oz