Day 31

Hard to believe we are at the end of January already. I lost 6.4lbs in Jan. Not bad, but definitely not where I could be.

I had a great birthday weekend. Friday night I stayed on the plan I laid out for myself (with a soup change). Tomato Bisque, side salad and 2 pita bread sticks. I did have 3 drinks, but still feel good with my eating. Now comes the bad news. Saturday was rough. After dinner Friday night a few of us went to the church to organize the garage sale stuff, didn't get in bed until after midnight. I had to be there at 6am the next morning. I had a Starbucks white mocha and 2 slices of pizza the entire day. Then came dinner. 6 of us were there. We shared the nachos, I had 6ish. Hubby and I split our dinners. He had a Parmesan crusted chicken breast and I got the pizza. I had one slice of pizza and about 8 bites of his chicken and a small scoop of mashed potatoes. 3 drinks....and then dreaded pazzookie came out. I didn't have any of the ice cream but probably ate at least half of the cookie. Sunday we had a bbq at my parents house. I didn't eat THAT bad, but didn't eat much. I had nothing until after 1. Then a few pieces of bread and some dip, few chips and dip, one sausage with some peppers and onions, some baked beans and a few bites of corn. Then had a small piece of birthday cake with my sister (birthday 2 days before mine). I didn't eat anything for dinner (got distracted with my cricut) and around 9pm had some popcorn while I watched a show with my hubby.

Now while I know my eating was crappy. I do know that on MANY others birthdays it has been MUCH worse. I feel decent about how I did and know that I am back on track today and that's all that counts.

My goals for the week are:
1. Drink more than 80oz of water a day
2. Workout at least 5 days this week. JUST GET MOVING!
3. Do my hair and makeup and dress decent. (YAY for this. I feel better already on day one)
4. Track my eating!

My friend Lindsay (THANKS!!) gave me her on-line weight watchers membership for 14 weeks. So I will track my points and stuff for the next 14 weeks and see how I am liking it. If it works for me, I might sign up. Today was day one. Got a coffee this morning at Starbucks, it used to be 7ish points...now its 10. Lesson learned! I think I need to give hubby my gift cards so the temptation isn't there to stop on my way by!

Jen

Day 28

Well I weighed in today since I am not going to my meeting tomorrow because I have to be at church for garage sale at 6am (on my birthday gag). I am down a lb. Maybe tomorrow it will be a tad more, but I will stick my one pound. I feel ok with it. I am making progress.

1. Closer to GOD!
2. Drinking more water (averaging 70oz a day)
3. Feeling LESS bloated (pants feel better!)
4. Planned my meals all week and stuck to it!
5. I lost a lb (better than gaining!)

this week Michelle and I have added some new items to our list of becoming healthy!
1. Continue our water!!
2. Plan PLan PLAN!
3. Moving at least 5 days this week. Even if its a 15 min walk or lifting cans of corn for our arms....we have to do SOMETHING!
4. Wear makeup and do our hair everyday.

#4 is a big deal to me. Everyday I have to dress decent for work. You know khaki pants, dress pants with a sweater and some cute flats (I LOVE cute flats!). But I don't wear makeup and 9/10 my hair is either in a barrette and a pony tail or in a pony tail with a headband. I know how much better I feel when I take a few minutes to put on at least mascara and leave my hair down and GASP maybe even curl it. I know hubby LOVES it. I just don't take the time.

This morning the girls from work brought in breakfast for me. Since we just had cake 2 days ago for another co-worker they decided on breakfast. I was hoping it would be something I could grab, come back to my office and ditch it in the trash. BUT it was everyone gather in the conference room to eat. So I got 1 small piece of each breakfast casserole. Honestly they were good, but I could have easily skipped it! So tell me, is there a tactful way to get out of that situation without eating? I mean I can always say sorry I am dieting, but I just had a small slice of cake the other day. I am full now, more full than I like to feel after breakfast, not because I ate a lot, but I think because I don't typically eat much more than a packet of oatmeal or a protein shake.

Be praying for me as I go through my birthday weekend full of temptations!!!

Jen

Day 27

Feeling weak today, but holding strong. Water has been low today, so trying to get at least a good amount in me before work is done. Tonight is a busy night, dinner, homework, baths, cake order, cupcake order.

Tomorrow night is dinner #1 for my birthday. With a bunch of my friends. Elephant Bar. I picked this place before I was dieting again. My choices are fairly slim. I am hoping maybe someone wants to share something. There are a few things I LOVE there, but wow looking at the calories is frightening.

what I would get and eat all of it:

Crispy Honey Orange Shrimp and white rice: 1150cals, 53 grams of fat, 3540 mg of sodium, 154 carb, 4 fiber 74g of sugar. Then a drink or two and probably share dessert.

how gross!

I wrote down several options all under 600 cals (french dip - I figure this one even less if I skip the bread and eat the meat and dip and fire grilled lemon garlic chicken). I am hoping they have their Thai Style Chicken Soup with 2 pita chips. I will have that and a side wedge for 400 cals (including dressing). I am going to skip dessert for sure....but I am really wanting a drink. So I will go search for something that wont break the bank. But 600-700 cals for a meal is good. I have a salad planned for lunch (roughly 280). So all in all I will end the day around 1200-1300.

Saturday night is dinner at BJ's (I know why do I pick these places) and Sunday a bbq at my parents with burgers, corn, beans and CAKE. Cake is dumb! LOL

Jen

eeeaaaatttttinggg.....

So not sure if I am extra hungry today or if its my brain dealing with the cake that's making me that way. Its sure crazy how a certain food can trigger feelings like this. Sounds odd, but I am feeling very anxious about this. Looking at the clock, wondering when they are going to cut it, etc. And its been this way ALL day. STUPID CAKE!

I have eaten more today than normal, but all things that are ok.
B: oatmeal, coffee
S: Banana (don't usually have a morning snack)
L: Soup (veggies and meatballs)
S: 12 pop chips
then a pudding. Its 2:30!

I don't feel hungry, just got my water filled up, so I am SET for the cake cutting. Just typing this out makes it sound even more ridiculous and I guess someone out there might feel this way. Going back and forth in my head....you DON'T need cake, but who will ever know, your NOT hungry, but who eats cake to get full, it tastes good, you NEED to try a big piece to make sure its good to sell, A small taste will be fine. Back and forth ALL DAY LONG.

Typing this is making me feel stronger. Making me feel like I can handle this. Reminding myself how GOOD I will feel when I walk away with a small taste and not a honking piece.

I CAN DO THIS!

I'm not on a diet. I'm on a journey with Jesus to learn the fine art of self-discipline for the purpose of holiness.

Lisa Author of Made to Crave! PS If you have not read this book, do it! ITS AMAZING!

Jen

Day 26 - What started bad turned into good

So I got up this morning in a funk. Annoyed that I have to deal with losing weigh, didn't get good sleep because my littlest J is sick and was up and down alot last night :(  I got out the door and on the road, texted my bestie Michelle, she gave me a pep talk! She helped turn my funk into fire. WE CAN DO THIS! I have to stop looking at this as a "diet", but as a lifestyle change. I can NEVER go back to eating fast food half the week, I can NEVER go back to soda all the time, I can NEVER go back to skipping breakfast or having Starbucks instead. I just CANT. I know I can have those thing again, in moderation, but for now, to get this weight off, I HAVE to be focused!

Today is a co-workers birthday, we usually get a cake from the grocery store (GAG). I usually eat the gross cake knowing its not going to taste that good. Being a baker, maybe I have higher standards HA! I got a recipe for a Neapolitan cake, it had pink frosting. The gal here LOVES pink (her wedding dress was pink) so I made it last night. I wont go into detail with this being a blog about trying to LOSE weight...but let me tell you it will take all the willpower I HAVE to NOT have any, nor any of the cupcakes (same recipe) I made for life group tonight. I plan to have a bit, to taste it, you know because I will add to my business if it tastes good. but that's IT. A TASTE, not a whole pieces...a taste and a picture!

Yesterday's Eats
B: oatmeal, coffee with ff creamer
L: salad (taco meat, cheese, lettuce, black beans, small bit of salsa and sour cream as dressing)
S: pudding cup
D: Chicken, Noodles, Veggies
S: popcorn

T-Minus 3 days until I am 35. WOWZERS

Jen

Day 25

Yesterday I had a great eating day and an even better water day!! Usually my cycle is this: Weigh in on Saturday, eat like a cow all weekend and forget to drink water. I am up a couple lbs on Monday, do good mon-weds and by thurs I am actually showing a loss, then by sat when I weigh in I have a loss. BUT this week is different. Since I stayed mostly on plan this weekend and drank my water, I am showing a loss today!! That's huge for me! :) So hoping by Sat, I will see 3lbs GONE!

This morning was rough. The biggest J was having one of "those" mornings. She is 5, life ends if her granola bar is wrong, she forgets her jacket, she is too cold to get dressed etc. My littlest J is sick, coughing and snotty. I thank GOD for my stepmom. She watches him Mon-Weds and will take him even when he sick and take GREAT care of him :)

Yesterdays eats:
B: oatmeal, coffee, ff creamer
L: Sopa de Albondigas (Amazing meatball soup)
S: FF pudding cup
D: 2 eggs, 2 bacon, whole wheat toast
S: popcorn
Water: 90oz (I have NEVER drank that much in a day!!)
Jen

Day 24 - FAT FEET?

Today has been a great day eating and getting my water in. 48 oz in so far! Tonight will be another trial. Hubby has band practice and is gone from 7-10.

So I have been heavy before, about the same weight I am now. I dont remember how my feet looked or what size they were when I was heavy. I have always been an 8 1/2. After 3 kids and all the weight BACK on my body, I am a 9 1/2. I have tons of running shoes, workout shoes, cute flats etc. Now my questions is: When I lose weight with my feet go back down a little? 1/2 size? please? lol I am just debating if I should spend the money (which I dont really have) to get some workout shoes in a 9 1/2 or just deal with the ones I have now in hopes that I go back down a little and they fit more comfortably. They dont give me blisters or anything, they are just tight.

I have a twinge of a headache. Which has been my norm post aunt flo since I had the littlest J.

Jen