Its usually about now in my weight loss journey that I fail. I WONT this time, I wont get bored and venture off to eating crappy again. I Just CANT and just WONT! I can say this after a night of bad choices. Dinner was a good choice, chicken and veggie soup, 1 small cornbread. Then life group, had 2 mini donuts (my dessert just
didn't turn out right). Not so shabby right? THEN I went with my sisters to Chili's for a drink. I had planned on the margarita so that I am not beating myself up about, but the chips and salsa and bean dip. I
DIDN'T plan for that. I got there saw it and my heart sang.
mmm how I love thee. I
didn't once stop and think of how I would feel after I ate it, the feelings of discouragement, the sick feeling in my stomach, the failure when I woke up and saw what the salt did to the scale. I guess that just proves something which I already knew. I have a long road ahead, not just the weight I have to lose, but the strength, determination, the willingness to say NO. I can eat chips and salsa again. Just not NOW, not with 60lbs to lose! I need to not put myself in situations that have these temptations that I am not yet strong enough to resist.
I have been dying to try this chocolate dessert. I have had the recipe for ages, so I finally made it the other night. I like to add new things to my business menu as often as I can. It tasted
gooood, but then after I chilled it over night like it said, it was off looking. Weird texture and odd color (chocolate looked gray) So scrapped that and threw the recipe away.
Its funny..I have 2 blogs, one I am writing my weight loss struggles on and the other is my dessert business where I write of all things I bake. Quite the opposite!
Food intake:
B: oatmeal, coffee with ff creamer
L: half pb&J, cheese stick
S: applesauce
D: bowl of chicken chile soup, one cornbread muffin
S: 2 donuts
S: chips, salsa, bean dip, margarita
2 comments:
I love the new picture you put up!!!!
Jen, I want to say this:
One night of chips and salsa will not cause you to gain weight. It's the days of eating out of regret and feelings of failure that will do it! Give yourself permission to go out once in a while and enjoy the food. If you feel horrible about it, that will lead to eating your emotions, you know?
Just my opinion...not saying chips and salsa every night, but once in a while is not going to hurt anything as long as you give yourself permission and don't emotionally eat afterward.
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